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Dead To Me~ Alex Standall

Anger is the only emotion that you could feel right now. You had just talked to him, not even an hour ago. The minute that you had gotten a call from Mr. Standall, you knew. You knew that Alex had selfishly shot himself. The two of you had told each other everthing, earning your relationship the title 'Future Mr. and Mrs.' in the school year book. Everyone but, Bryce supported your relationship- even Jessica. No one seen It comeing. The next day ar school, you had gotten stares. Where was your regards? Where was your condolences? Where the hell was your comfort? The only people who cared, were Zach, your parents, Clay, Tony, Jess, Scotty, and Mr. and Mrs. Standall. 
  You would visit Alex regularly, until a week went by and no sign showed that Alex was going to wake. You didn't move on, you didn't know how. So, instead, you just stayed cramped up in your room. You took online classes, you ignored everyone's calls and texts, your parents had sheltered you and whenever someone had asked about you, they shut the question down. Mr. Porter thought that it woul've been best if he didn't but out also. So, he was the only person you let in. You trusted him with your life, just like every one should trust a teacher.
    Soon enough though, Alex and woken up and asked for you continuously. Zach would change the subject, not knowing what to say because he had the same questions that Alex did. Everyone missed you, even Courtney. Clay missed your help when he was thinking about Hannah. Jess missed your fashion advice and comfort. Tony missed your knowledge about cars. Zach missed your humor. Scott missed your attitude. Every single person at school missed you and Alex.
     After three weeks of Alex giving you time while he got used to the school, Zach decided that he was fed up with missing you and Alex whining, so he gave you a surprised visit. Your parents had date night, so you had been all alone. Zach used the spair key that you gave him that belonged to Alex, and opened the door. Alex shoved Zach and walked down the hall dangerously loud, not giving any fucks.  "Alex, she's going to know." Zach whispered. "I don't fucking care, I love her and I'm going to get her to talk." He said, opening your bed room door.
        Meanwhile, you had been in the bath just trying to rap your mind around the past few months. Your best friend had killed herself, than moths later your boyfriend tries. You thought that what people said was true, you really were intolerable. Just as you had gotten comfortable in the small tub, the door swung open. Sounds of tapping filled your ears. You for sure thought that you were about to die. Suddenly, the boy you had fallen in love with poked his head around the corner. Your heart stopped, as he wobbled in and shut the door. His beautiful face held anger, sadness, and regret.  You wanted nothing more than to reach out and touch him. "So, are you going to tell me why you're ignoring my calls, and everyone else?" He asked.
    You stayed silent. He rolled his eyes, and sat at the edge of the tub. "You're just going to sit there and sat nothing?" He asked dumbfounded. You looked away and played with the water. He scoffed. You tried your best to hid your wrists from the male. "So I waited weeks to see and talk to the girl I love, and you wont even look at me?" He stated sad. Your heart shattered but you couldn't risk opening your heart, jusy for it to get shattered agian. "Y/N please talk to me!" He begged. A knock on the door made you jump. "Zach I found her, but she wont talk." A sigh left Zach's mouth, after Alex finished his sentence. "Can I come in?" He asked. "She's kind of naked."
      The two boys bickered through the door and you finally got the courage to speak. "Alex Standall." You said. "I gave you all of my love. I told you every thing about me. I held you when you cried, I kissed you when you needed one, I even gave you my virginity. I gave you my all. You were my everything. When, I got the call, my world died. Every thing went black around me. The one person that I gave everything to, had tried to leave me." You stopped to see Alex's face. Tears rolled down his face. "Love, i'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you." "But you did. And now you're dead to me."