I feel something I haven't felt in years
The feeling's so close
I'm on the verge of tears
It's a wonderful
Yet painful feeling
And it has been eating me from the inside for so long
But I'm proud to say that I was strong
I feel like I might cry
The feeling annoys me
I can not lie
A knot has been in my stomach for such a long time
Now it feels like...
A dam
Slowly breaking
But not crumbling down
Like a rope
Trying to be cut with paper
A cage full of butterflies
Trying to escape
All of the feelings I've tried to hide
Now, can't be hidden
Emotions that I kept hidden from everyone
Including myself
Slowly coming back
Yet it hits me with full force
It frustrates me
Everything I want to hide
To forget
Not forgotten
Just refreshed
A pang of pain
Into my heart
Just makes me want to fall apart
I just want to leave
Leave everything behind
Hoping my heart will change it's mind
Yet it won't
It just won't you see
And it will always be there to haunt me
An aching spot
A scar that will never heal
I really wish I put up a fight or a shield
Because the pain is real
But no turning back
There can't be any change
The pain will always be there
But will slowly heal
Even though it has come from hidden to hope
~Khrystal Amezquita
