The Trip Into My Mind Saga

Why I Do This [Trip into my Mind #2]

[Intro]
I've been thinking
Thinking about why I do this?
Thinking about why I haven't quit yet?
What is the point of doing this?
I think I figured it out

Yo listen

[Verse]

I've been thinking
Thinking, why I haven't quit this shit and drowned my sorrows, drinking.
Tryna rise to the top but I drop lower sinking
I try to grow but keep getting smaller, shrinking.

And I look at my mirror reflection
I see a face barren of any happy expression
A face broken by constant rejection
A man ravaged by depression
A man mentally destroyed by sleep deprivation.

But I look closer and I see hope
I see the faces of all the others going through the same shit as me
But I was too blind to see
That I don't just do this for me, I do this for you
You the one reading this
So you can breakthrough
And see the world in a different hue
A different angle
Listen to me you're beautiful, no matter how much life has you mangled
Broken
Unspoken
The pain you have has left you heartbroken
But I'm here to change it
To make you realise, you ain't gotta put up with their shit
Promise me no matter the number of hits
Get the fuck back up, never call it quits

This is for the kid being bullied
The girl who's broken hearted
I write this shit for you all, I know pain I don't forget where I started.
Our kids are going through too much to even believe
Too much to even conceive
They all have dreams
I do too
They all have pain
I do too
That's why I work to help them get through
Through the bullshit of life
All the fucking strife

To the girl still crying on her sheets
Looking in mirror full off insecurities
Listen I know you don't feel wanna but know that you gotta eat
I know you think you need to but you don't need those pills
Don't feed the addiction, fuck it don't you see that it kills

I promise
If you need me, I'm here you
Show me your pain, tell me what you feel
Show me the scars and I'll prove anything can heal
Maybe I don't understand pain, guess I never will
But if you're feeling broken now, I'll be real
Promise you'll make it out, you don't have to feel scared
If you're emotional, I promise Ima' be there
Yeah there for you
With me by your side there's nothing you can't do
With inspiration you can live again Believe me it's true
Just promise me with your dreams you'll follow through

Because in the end we all got someone who loves us
Someone who you can trust
This world is changing we need to adjust
I know life makes you want to combust
When you've suffered mistrust
But if you need someone to confide in I promise I can be that guy, damn
Like I said before I don't do this for my own gain
I do this for you
Isn't it insane
I share my pain
To show I'm with you on this lonely road, this broken lane

Yeah

I swear I'm gonna lose it
It's your life, you choose what to do with it
I just wanna make this music
For the fans I have right now

I work so that just one day, a fan will look me in the eyes and say to me
"You're the reason why I haven't given up, you're the reason for my happiness"

I want people to look up to me for inspiration
Look down at them with tenderness
That is my motivation

That is all I aspire for
That's all I write for
Yeah write until my eyes get sore

Sore
Before
I fall
Before the final.call
This is for the fans I'm sure
Because I wanna hear they say I'm the reason they're alive.

Guess my thinking is over
After these bars I've spit
I now understand why I do this shit
With the pain that was hidden deep inside
As we move forward with this trip into my mind