What if I stayed ?

Chapter 9

" It has been a while, not happy that I had to come to talk, but we need to" says Yusuf's mom.

Hayal looks surprised and nervous about what his mom will say. They head inside of the house, Hayal offered her something to drink, but she didn't want to.

" After that day that we had a conversation at the house, I thought that I'll never see you again or I'll never have to come at you and talk with you again, but it turns out completely different. I thought that you learned that you did a mistake and that mistakes can be fixed by staying away from them. I came here to know what are you thinking and why are you still with my son. "

" Ma'am..."

" I'll give you want you want, if you give me what I want. There is no other choice anyway. "

" What do you mean ? "

" If you don't stay away from my son, bad things will happen. You and him are not meant to be together. "

" What is wrong by being together ? We like each other. "

" He likes you ? Open your eyes and look around. He doesn't like you, he pities you. "

" That's no true. I know it. "

" You don't. 2 years ago Yusuf tried to commit suicide too. Your story reminds him what happened with him. You're just opening his wounds while he is trying to make you feel better. For his sake stay away from him. You're only gonna damage his memories. "

" I... "

" Starting from today your mother's lawyer is in my order. If you don't listen to me, your mother's trial will be damaged too. "

" Why are you doing this ? "

" I do everything for my son. "

" No... No... "

" You're about to finish high school this year, I'll give you a chance to study abroad. After finishing school, after some years your mother will be out and you will live your life happily together, that means without my son. "

" Don't. "

" I'll give you 2 days to think. I'll not let you ruin my son no matter what you choose. "

Yusuf's mom gets out, while Hayal starts crying. She spent hours and hours sitting on the floor crying and overthinking.

I, acting like fool thought that he liked me, he pitied me. What's why he is near me. But what if that's not true. What if he really likes me ?

No, no ! I remind him of his past. He has been on this path, and I wondered how he was so understanding at my pain. I knew too that I'm not good enough for him, and I still kept being near him. I'm the rotten apple near the beautiful and fresh apple. But I like him so much...

Yusuf calls her, but she doesn't want to pick his call.

The morning Adhan calls, Hayal didn't sleep yet. She feels like she is surrounded by misery of the whole world.

I feel like this house is suffocating me, there is no air that my lungs can breathe. Even if I open the whole windows and doors of this empty house, the air won't get in here for me to breathe. What have I done to myself ? Why did I get in this much mess ?

My heart melts only by looking him in the eyes...

Is it worthy to ruin both of our lives ? I mean mine is already ruined, but what will happen with Yusuf ? Should I be selfish?

On that cold floor Hayal fell asleep for a little.

In 7am Yusuf's mom sends her a message:

" I'll be waiting you in my house at 9 o'clock. "