Scars That Last Forever II

Chapter Seven

I want Bucky. 

MJ and Ned are frozen in shock. 

I throw my shirt over my head. 

What did I just do?

"I'm sorry," I whisper and quickly get to my feet. 

I turn on my heel and run to the door.

"Peter..." MJ says.

I look back at her. 

"I'm so sorry. Please don't tell," Without looking back I open the door and step out into the hall. 

Then I run. 

I run o the empty ally next to the building. 

Bucky. 

I need Bucky. 

I lean my head against the brick wall. 

What did I just do?

I finally had friends,

and now they are gone. 

Because I was stupid. 

And now they know everything about me. 

I told them. 

I hear a noise in the back of the dark ally. 

Fear.

Quickly I run out onto the open streets. 

People chatter around me. 

But I run. 

I run back to the tower. 

...

I step into the living room. 

Sweat pours down my face and my breath is rugged. 

My eyes burn with tears. 

"Kid?" A familiar voice asked. 

I look to the couch to find Tony watching TV. 

He stands up from the couch and walks over to me. 

He stops right in front of me. 

I can't focus. 

"Why don't you go take a shower and then tell me what happened, ok?" 

I nod. 

He moves out of the way and I stumble to the bathroom. 

What have I done?

They know.

Everything. 

I want Bucky. 

I pull the door shut behind me and close the door.

My phone rings in my back pocket. 

I pull it out. 

Ned. 

No. 

I can't. 

I throw my phone against the wall and watch it shatter into pieces. 

I'm a monster. 

With shaky hands, I turn on the shower and wait for it to warm up. 

It doesn't take very long. 

I slip off my clothes and step into the shoer under the stream of water. 

It burns down my skin but feels good. 

Sighing I lean against the shower wall. 

What did I do?

I'm so stupid.

Tears stream down my face as my shaky hands run shampoo through my hair. 

After a moment I step out of the shower and wrap a towel around my waist. 

I look down at the shatter pieces of the phone on the ground. 

Shit. 

I grab a bag from the cabinet and quickly pick up the shattered tech.

... 

I grab the bag with the pieces of the phone in it and shove it into my back pocket of my sweat pants. 

I slowly walk into the living room. 

Tony is still sitting on the couch watching TV. 

"Hey bud," He says and pats the couch next to him. 

Hesitantly I sit down leaving a small space in between us. 

I don't like hugging or being close to people besides Bucky. 

And I guess Steve. 

"Do you want to tell me what happened or do you want to eat some ice cream and watch TV?" 

I consider this for a moment. 

I like Tony. 

But I don't think I'm ready to trust him yet. 

There is only one person I completely trust and one person I mostly trust. 

Bucky and Steve. 

"TV and ice cream, I guess," Tony smirks and pushes himself up from the couch to get the ice cream. 

After a moment of banging around, he comes back from the kitchen. 

He takes his place on the couch and hands me a tub of ice cream and a spoon. 

"Oh um," I look down. Tony looks over to me, I pull the bag of the broken pieces of the phone from my pocket, "I need a new phone," 

Tony's eyes widen and he stares at the bag. 

"H-How! I made that... It is indestructible!" He exclaims.

Oops. 

"Um, I threw it at the wall," 

My face goes slightly red. 

Tony's eyes go wider. 

"How the hell?" He exclaims skeptically. 

"Sorry," he shakes his head at me. 

"No kid, it's fine... I'm just surprised that's all..." 

I take another bite of my ice cream. 

He looks at the TV. 

"So this is Star Wars," 

I smile slightly. 

"Ned told me it was a good show," 

Tony nodded slightly and we both turned our attention to the TV. 

Every once and a while I could see him glancing to me then down to the bag of phone parts on the table. 

While the movie plays I forget about my problems. 

I am engrossed in the exciting adventure of Luke Skywalker and his friends. 

When the ending credits role my problems come rushing back. 

I look out the window at the moon. 

Maybe Bucky is looking at the same moon. 

Or maybe-

Don't think about it. 

Two more days. 

I don't know if I can wait that long. 

I need Bucky.