anxious confessions

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You told me you liked me
You called me attractive
I have a boyfriend
Who has never said either of those things

I don't plan on being with him forever
But I won't jump into a relationship once he's gone
What do you want from me
What do you expect me to do

I don't know if I like you
Or if I like the attention you give me
Either way I don't know how to react
Either way I don't understand

You don't know much about me
We've barely became friends
You like the parts of me you know
There's a lot left a mystery

You seem nice
I enjoy the compliments you gave me
I know you have bad anxiety
So telling me how you feel took a lot

So where do we go from here
I can't stop you from liking me
But I can't act on my feelings
Because I don't even know what they are

You're very funny
And you listen to me rant
But that doesn't make my boyfriend disappear
I don't know if I want to date you or not

Even if I did
You would have to wait
And I don't think you would
Because it would be a while

I need to sort things out
These thoughts in my head are too loud
Screaming emotions at me in the dark
A mess I can't translate

So we can start off as friends
We might even become best friends
I don't know you that well now
But we can learn more about each other

I'm not used to people liking me
I don't know how to respond
My boyfriend and I aren't very close to begin with
But I'm holding off until I won't see him anymore

But I'll be seeing you
For some years now
Whether or not it will be a good or a bad thing
Only time knows what love holds

*****

You told me you like me, but who knows how you feel.

~Luna Galaxy, a fallen star

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