The girl in the Hoodie *Slowly Editing*

Chapter Twenty

We all head downstairs and out the door, jumping into Emma's car. We drive for the estimated 20 minutes and stop at the dirt track I know all to well

At the end of the track, I put my head down knowing what's about to come but when I look up, it's not what I expected

A small tent and fire pit is set up to the left of the cliff. A silhouette sits at the edge of the cliff, a bottle clasped in his hands and a cigarette held in the other

"is this what you've came to" I say making him jump a little. He turns around enough to see the sorrow in his once bright green eyes now as dull as a slow carnival ride

Noah stands up, dropping the bottle of what looks to be vodka and stumbles over to me. His eyes look like they haven't closed properly for days as dark circle just under his eyes

"nic-" before he can finish I slap him

That's right

You heard me

I slapped him

His head whips to the side as hand immediately clutches his cheek "I deserved that" he sighs, rubbing his cheek

"let me start off by letting you how much of a bastard you have been" I clarify looking at him with disbare

"nicky you can't come out here and just-" I cut him off

"it's nicole to you" i spit, pulling a strained smile. His gaze shoots to the ground as I continue "no actually, its nicolena to you" I add

"i didn't know that was your full name, babe" he says bringing his eyes up to look at mine. I narrow my eyelids at the comment

"oh you don't know a lot of things about me babe" I say spitting the word 'babe' with a whole lot of hate

"you don't look like your in the right state to talk to me" he sighs shaking his head down at me, taking in my features

I mean he was right, I was in no state to come up here and talk to him dressed the way I am. I wear a cropped long sleeve grey shirt with loose grey joggers, my hair in one messy high ponytail and tear strecked cheeks that didn't make my looks look any better. The Worst part of it all, I'm not wearing a bra

"i don't care what fucking state I'm in to talk to you" I shout, a single tear dropping from the corner of my eye

Noah goes to whip it away but I don't let him. I won't let him. I grab his wrist before his hand can reach my face and keep a firm hold on it as he looks at me intently

"dont" I whisper loud enough for him to hear me "Noah I just want you to tell me one thing"

He nods in agreement. I let go of his wrist and inhale sharply before speaking

"do you love me" I choke, now multiple tears sliding down my face. Noah visibly tenses at my question

"do you want to kiss me till my lips go numb, do you want to hug me till I'm warm, do you want to make me happy when I'm feeling sad" I wipe the tears away as he stays silent

"do you want to hold me in you arms, care for me, touch me, kiss me, like no one else can... that is all I want to know"

"do you love me" I repeat softly, barely even whispering it. He stands there, eyes clenched shut, his mouth stays in a straight line, not moving an inch looking like it's not going to open any time soon

"that what I thought" shaking my head, I take a few steps back from him, anger rising inside of me "did I mean a thing to you!?" I shout

"was this all a joke to you?! were you just for filling your destiny to sleep with me then go fuck off with another girl"

your nothing to him, my brain says

but he's everything to you, my heart fights

"not anymore" I mutter to no one in particular "im going" I sigh

I walk away, slightly hoping he runs after me. But he never does. Not looking back, I walk back though the trees to the dirt track and see Emma and Jade, both leaned against the car

"let's go home love" Jade says slinging her arm over my shoulder, trying to brighten the mood. I chuckle slightly knowing she's just trying to help

"you wanna know something?" Emma asks and I nod, getting into the front passenger seat

"feeling dead is the worst part of being alive" she says making all of us chuckle

I HOPE THIS COMES TO STANDEDS (I'm patting myself on the back for this chapter cause it it my normal 2000 words) my studies are back on track everyone but I'm grounded...

see I snuck out with my friends to get donimos and my dad found out so yee I'm in shitttttt

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