Even With You

1 ~ Do you?

I ask you a million times to make sure what I hear is true
Do you?
Love me like you claim to
Sometimes you have a funny way of showing it

Promises? broken.
Trust? kinda there.
Effort? sometimes.

You promised you'd talk tonight knowing we live far apart and none of us drive yet.
But our call ends up being 5 minutes before you fall asleep on me
"No, I'm talking to you all night since we haven't talked all day today or yesterday"
Okay is all I say, knowing already you'll fall asleep on me while waiting on you to bring up whatever you did today.
Of course, I don't blame you.
I force myself not to be selfish with you

You don't trust me talking to our mutual friend
The only reason I facetimed him was cause you were busy
You thought I was gonna leave or worse, cheat
How much trust do you have in me?
Not much if I'm being honest.
I talked to our friend cause I needed someone to vent to and you weren't there for me.
Although, I can't rely on you all the time
You won't always be available.
I can't be selfish with you.

Some nights, I think I put in too much effort to keep you
You say you love me the way I am, but who I am is not who I'm trying to be.
An emotional clingy time bomb waiting to explode

So when you say you love me...
Do you?