alexithyma | h.rj

76 - Narration

N A Y E O N

"mom! I'm going!" I shouted before finally going outside of our house. I breathed and even rubbed my hands together because of the cold breeze in the early morning.

Nang makalabas sa gate ay agad kong nakita si renjun. He's alone. Mark oppa's probably not coming with us. I wonder why?

"oppa's not coming?" i asked him when he turned at my direction.

He stared for a bit before nodding his head. Lumapit siya and then casually get my bag from me. "why?"

"why what?"

"why isn't he coming?" I asked. We started walking our way to the bus stop.

"i don't know. Didn't he sent you a message or something?" he asked furrowing his brows seriously.

I nodded my head sideways as a no. He shrugged his shoulders, "he said he has to go somewhere before going to school." he muttered.

Tumango tango naman ako and just let the topic slips off. "so when will lucas oppa arrive?" i asked curiously.

Not that i'm interested in him or anything... It's just we're off topic. Ayaw ko ng sobrang tahimik namin dahil nauuwe sa awkward atmosphere. That's not really good to start the morning.

A knot formed in his forehead, "why are you even interested?" he asked sounding so accusing.

I chuckled, "can't i be curious?"

"you can't." he said sternly.

I laughed a bit. "okay fine! Geez, chill." sabi ko pa at medyo nagpasalamat na natanaw ko na ang bus na sasakyan namin papuntang school.

We hop on the moment it stood in front of renjun and me. We chose the usual second to the last seat for two and I sat beside the window like how I used to do.

I slid the window open so the i'll breath in the fresh air. I love mornings like this. I feel like i'm being restored anf refreshed.

Nang marating namin ang school ay agad akong dumiretso sa locker's area. Renjun went there with me and to say that students were looking at us was underestimating. They're actually staring at us! I roamed my eyes at them but they remained unbothered. Even renjun doesn't care at all. How come he's not affected at all?

"what's with the staring?" he suddenly asked. Hindi ko namalayang napatitig na pala ako sa kanya.

I felt embarrased being caught. "y-you can go to your room na, renjun. Kaya ko naman na pumuntang room mag-isa." I said trying to divert the topic.

Hinalungkat ko pa ang locker ko at sinubukang ayusin ang mga gamit kahit hindi naman talaga makalat 'yon. I just want an excuse para iwan niya ako dito. Pero imbis na umalis at pumunta na sa kanyang room, he leaned against the locker beside me.

"its okay. I'll wait for you. Maaga parin naman for my first subject. I'll just get annoyed hearing haechan's rants." he said casually.

Wala naman na akong nagawa kundi hayaan siya. I can't tell him to go again because he'll think i'm pushing him away.

Nang matapos akong kumuhang gamit ay may lumapit sa amin ni renjun. Her scent lured in my nose and made it very itchy that I nearly sneezed. She smelled too sweet for my liking!

"hi renjun! and... err hi nayeon!" maarteng bati samin ni ju shin.

I rolled my eyes at how plastic she is. Ngiting ngiti siya kay renjun na halos makita ko na ang gums niya. Okay! She is pretty! Pero dahil sa ginagawa niya, nawawala ang poise niya and nababawasan ang kagandahan niya.

Hindi siya inimikan ni renjun at tinapunan lang siya ng saglit na tingin. She wasn't expected that kind of reaction from him, i can tell by her reaction.

"you done?" renjun asked me.

Napalipat sa kanya ang atensyon ko at agad naman akong napatango. "y-yeah." dagdag ko pa.

"renjun-"

"then lets get you to your class." he interrupted before pulling me by my arms.

Hindi na ako ulit nakaangal pa. Honestly, i really hate ju shin. She's too kikay and i really think sobrang arte niya. Pero what renjun did just make me feel guilty in some unknown reason.

When we arrived at my class I looked at him and tried opening the topic.

"you shouldn't ignored ju shin like that." i said.

He sighed, "we're not even close in the first place so why talking to me anyways?" he rudely concluded.

I rolled my eyes. "basta! Try to be a little nice, okay?" i asked him.

He stared at me and I gulped. I felt nervous with those eyes shamelessly darted at me.

"o-okay?" i repeated myself.

He sighed heavily, "okay." he said in defeat. I broke into a big smile before I get my bag from him.

"good! See you after class!" i said then waved at him.

"at recess and lunch break." he corrected and I just laughed at it before finally going inside the room.