So this hasn't been edited really yet so it might be rough. This is based on my experience with a boyfriend. I have a therapist now and I resently told her about it. I mentioned how I had a fear of physical relationships, and he came up. She said he sounded abusive, I had never thought of him like that because he didn't hit me. But it fit. So this is about that. I hope you give it some love it's kinda personal.
Sometimes when
it's late at night
When all is quiet
I think about him
His words
So sweet and soft
They melted me
Too weak to leave
His actions
Attentive and attached
Always close by
Me too weak to leave
Sometimes when
I start to cry
When my thoughts run rampant
I read our old messages
His texts
Sugared and thick
Often and constant
Me too scared to reply
His reminders
Controlling and angry
Filled with fire
Me too scared to reply
Sometimes when
I hear certain words
love or sex
I remember him
His ways
Of saying I love you
Of saying you are mine
Me too weak to argue
His touches
When I sleep
When I try to stop
Me too weak to argue
Sometimes when
I see my arm
And the scars
I travel back to him
Him knowing
And never helping
Instead blaming
Me too scared to fight
Him yelling
The way it moved
It made my knife move
Me too scared to fight
Sometimes when
We pass
Him ignoring
I feel for him
His tears
That night when
I told him I'm done
Me too strong to continue
His hatred
So strong and stifling
I'm to blame for being
Too strong to continue
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My thoughts in poems
PoetryI've been inspired to put some my poems up here I hope you like them. Some are really personal stories, while others are just observation. Any thoughts are appreciated. Getting out these thoughts is very releasing.
