The girl in the Hoodie *Slowly Editing*

Chapter Nineteen

Penny followed his eyes and immediately wided, pulling herself away from him and towards me. I step back slowly, not wanting to see any of this anymore

The next thing you know, my legs are running as fast as they possibly can out of his house. I ran and ran until I didnt think my legs could take it anymore. Sitting on the curb, I wipe my tears away furiously not wanting myself to feel weak

I hear footsteps behind me but decide to ignore then. The body sits beside me, placing a hand on my knee

"nicole.." a voice I know all to well whispers and I turn to hug them. Alex wraps his arms around me and rubs my back, whispering soothing things into my ear

"what's wrong nic" he whispers, pulling back as I shake my head

"my best friend from New York just kissed noah" I mutter and he nods understandably

stupid penny, stupid noah, stupid trust stupid love, stupid life

"do you want me to walk you home?" he asks and i shake my head

"i think I'll just call Jade to drive me" I say and he nods once again

"I'll see you tomorrow yeah?" he asks and I give him a quick reply assuring him he will before he walks back to the party and pulling out my phone

I dial jades number and she immediately answers, the sound of music blasting in the backround

"what's up girl?" she yells

"can you drive me home I'm not feeling to well" I ask

"of course hunny, where are you?" she asks and I shrug even though she can't see me

"Ill meet you at the car" I say before hanging up and walking towards the car

Jade drops me off saying she going back to the party but if I need anything call and all I can do is nod before I see her driving off. Just as I'm about to open the door, a message pops up on my phone

Dad, 10:17pm. I have work tonight pumpkin so if you get home early, lock the doors mom isn't home either love you

"yes" I silently whisper to myself

I unlock the door and close it behind me, the tears already starting to form and drip from my eyes, down my cheeks

Running up the stairs and into my room, I get changed into some grey sweats flipping my shoes off my feet and landing on my bed, crawling up into a ball

My whole body is shaking as I clench my eyes shut trying to get the horrible memory out of my head. She kissed her, and he didn't mind

I look over at my bedside table where a small frame sat. The picture inside the frame was a picture that I had adored since jade took it

The Saturday after we got back from camp, we all went ice skating at the local ice rink. Noah was hugging me from behind, his arms tightly around my waist, mittens covering his hands. His hair was tusseled everywhere, his cheeks slightly pink from the coldness and the glisten in his eyes could be spotted from afar

A huge grin was on my face that night as I laughed at the things he was saying. I was looking at the camera, however Noah wasn't. He was looking down at me happiness filled in his eyes

Or so I thought

Anger washes through me like a title wave and I pick up the picture hastily, throwing it at the wall across my room. Tears spill from my eyes even more all the glass shattering fills my ears

I can't take this anymore

Getting up abruptly from my bed, I walk over to my desk, unlocking one of the secret drawers in my desk and pulling out a small wooden box my dad gave me years ago. I open it, seeing the sharp blade in my sight

Grabbing it, I run into my bathroom, locking it behind me before turning the shower on and sitting under it. I look down at my now clear wrists and scream as loud as I can before putting the blade against it

"one for being an idiot, two for love, three for friendship, four for jealously" I growl to myself, sliding the blade deeply across my skin letting blood flow from my arm

I settle it under the water, taking in the stinging sensation but slowly getting used to it. My eyes become droopy as everything starts to slowly but surely blur my vision

My name is called from what seems like a distance as banging is heard on the door making a headache form

Doing nothing to stop it from happening, my whole body relaxes under the water and everything goes black

But not before hearing the door being busted down and a desperate voice yelling my name, shaking my body

So sorry again for the short chapter, I just have not been even bothered to update a full chapter lately. School has been on my mind and I have soooooo many assignments to complete so bear with me here