My Forever In Six Months

Chapter Two - New Begginings

The sweet sent of Aunt Alice. She always smelled sweet. Like she was busy making cookies or something, except that she couldn't really make anything in the kitchen, because trust me if she did, the house would burn down. And this is exactly why she was creepy. Who smells like cookies when they can't even bake and are hardly in the kitchen? Creepy and mysterious? I know, but that was just my normal aunt Alice. Out of all the things that changed over the years (me) she hasn't changed one bit.

As soon as Aunt Alice broke our hug she stared into my eyes, "Kid you haven't been sleeping much, have you?" she asked moving the strands of hair that was in my face. All I could do was nod. There was no point in hiding anything from aunt Alice. For heaven sake! She was creepy. She'd probably torture me until I spilled all my secrets out and then she'd tell the spirits.

Spirits? Well that's what made her CREEPY, besides the whole smelling like a chef when she couldn't even make anything. Aunt Alice has this weird practice at night where she'd talk to the walls in her house. She calls it "Talking To The Spirits". Sure this was by far the weirdest thing she's done through out her life, but ever since her husband Ryan left her, this was her way of dealing.

Ever since Ryan left Aunt Alice has been "talking to the spirits" so honestly as creepy as it may sound I find it normal. Ryan was all Aunt Alice had this side of the world. And once he left, it was just her and her home, which might I add was super lonely. She had no one to talk to. So basically talking to the "spirits" makes her feel like she has someone to talk to. Call her creepy, because heck she was, but underneath that she just had a bleeding heart.

Getting settled in didn't take that long. Aunt Alice had two extra rooms that James and I would sleep in whenever we spent the holidays here. I walked in the room that would of been his. "I left everything exactly the same." aunt Alice whispered from behind me. All I could do was smile.

"Besides this is basically the only extra room there is. I did renovation. Your room is kinda like a study room. You don't mind sleeping here, right?" she continued putting one of my bags on the floor.

"Not at all." I replied, " I guess I'll see you later once I'm done settling in?" I asked not trying to be rude. Of course aunt Alice being the sweet soft hearted person she was just smiled and left closing the door.

I stood there like an idiot for five minutes just looking at my surroundings. Nothing has changed, but I did. I changed in so many ways that I didn't know how to be the old person I was.

I didn't laugh anymore. I didn't smile anymore. I didn't sing anymore. I just wasn't me anymore.

Maybe moving here I didn't have to be the old me, maybe I could be the broken me that I was and just start fresh with the hurt in my heart.

Once I was finished in my room I went to the kitchen where Aunt Alice and mom was very comfortably seated on the bar chairs. I guess they heard me coming along and stopped talking. What were they whispering about?

"You settled in Joe?" Mom asked. All I did was nod. Screw it, I need to talk more and stop shaking my head.

"Yep I'm all settled in" I said with a smile.

"And seeing that you basically on your last year of high school wanna take a gap year and figure things out or..?" Aunt Alice trailed off looking at me.

Sitting on the empty bar chair, "Well I'm thinking of graduating. No use in doing nothing for a whole year, right? So high school it is!" I said in jolly tone. One of which you could hear was very fake, because ever since James died I was never jolly. Ever.

"Okay then. There's a school two blocks away. We can enroll you there?" she asked hoping for some response out of me all I did was just stare at her and smile. Smiling was okay, right? I mean obviously I was unhappy which wasn't a surprise. Rude, that was what I was. The people that cared about me was trying to help me and all I did was just push them away with my silence.

"Sure thing. I mean that's perfect. It's not too far from here too." I said trying to make the tension less awkward.

"Honey things will get easier and you'll love it here. You just need to believe that you will get through another day of mental torment, but you also need to realize that you didn't lose him alone. We all did. It's just when you lost him. We lost you too. And I'm not ready to loose my only child." Mom said placing her hand on mine.

" And might I mention my only niece" aunt Alice added.

Holly banana split! I loved them. And if I didn't change this bitter person I was, then what was the point in living after all?

I will not push away the people that love me and from this moment onwards I was going to be the new improved Joesiphene Anderson. The one that is actually going to make something out of her life this time. To new beginnings..