A Crush

Chapter 26

Jon's point of view

After that day, my life was destroyed. We recorded "I'll be there for you", "Born to be my baby" and "Living in sin" and I had to go to the toilet pretty often, because I felt like crying. When I was in the bathroom, I always collapsed in front of the mirror, crying my eyes out and sobbing Richie's name in repeat. I only wanted to be in his warm, comforting arms and listen to his soothing heartbeat which calmed me down so often. But it was over. I had to deal with that now. After we were done, I asked Tico if I could crash at his place for the night. He said that it was okay, and so I went over to Richie's to get some of my clothes. As I arrived there he was sitting on the couch, staring on the TV screen and had tears on his cheeks, obviously he wasn't done with crying. I quickly looked away and went to the bedroom, roaming through the closet and taking some things out. In an unnoticed moment, I took Richie's big blue sweater out of the closet and quickly put it into my suitcase, I just needed something that reminded me of him. As I thought that I was done, I turned around and wanted to leave, but Richie was standing in the door. "Hey", he whispered, looking down. "Hey Rich", I replied, studying the destroyed man in front of me. "Listen Jon, I miss you. But I meant every word I said earlier, so it sounds kinda weird. But I can't live without you, can you please stay?", he whispered with a begging look in his brown eyes. "I don't know if it's good if I stay, I mean, you broke up with me and we aren't a couple anymore. But we weren't a couple in the public anyways, so... I don't know Rich", I sighed and closed my eyes for a moment. I loved him still and I knew I couldn't live without him either, but we weren't together anymore. Suddenly I was pulled out of my thoughts by Richie, who wrapped his warm arms around me and embraced me into a hug. "I love you Jon", he mumbled into my hair and let his hands caress my back. "I love you too Rich", I replied and looked up, to see his loving face in front of mine. "Maybe we just try again to keep it a secret?", I asked and he nodded, cupping my cheek with one of his warm, calloused guitarist hands.

I closed my eyes, feeling his warm breath on my lips coming closer and closer. Finally his lips met mine, causing my body to tingle and my brain to spin. My hands soon tangled themselves in that long brown hair and pulled him closer, making him smirk into the kiss. He soon picked me up and laid me down on the bedsheets, hovering over me. "Babe, I missed you so much", I whispered and captured his lips once again. "I missed you too Jonny", he replied, his hands roaming over my whole body. I finally tugged on his shirt and straddled his waist to get even closer to him. He made kinda a show of taking his shirt off and threw it through the whole room when he finally ripped it over his head. His fluffy brown locks fell over his naked shoulders and his bangs lightly covered one of his beautiful chestnut brown eyes, making me gasp at the beautiful sight. I softly touched his cheek in adoration and ran my fingers through those soft brown curls, then running them back to his cheek and over those soft rosy lips. "You are so beautiful", I sighed and he blushed at my words, laying his hand gently on top of mine. "You're my everything", I finally whispered, making him blush even harder. I thought he was out of words, because he always opened his mouth to say something, but then just closed it again with a sigh. That action made me chuckle and I just tried to make it less awkward by crashing my lips on his again. I think he was thankful for my action, because he directly deepened the action and bit my bottom lip, causing me to moan. He used that moment to slip his tongue in and caress mine, making me feel dizzy. Only a few moments later my shirt was gone, I didn't really know how he could take it off that quickly. But he was Richie Sambora and the one who owned my whole heart, so it was probably possible that it just disappeared. While Richie tried to unbuckle my belt, there was a knock on the door. "Shit", I mumbled and quickly got up, grabbing my shirt and going into the bathroom while Richie went to open the door.

Through the closed door of the bathroom I recognized Tico's voice. "Where's Jon?" "In the bathroom" "Okay" Very short conversation. Then there were footsteps coming towards the bathroom door and a light knock on it. "Jon, are you in there?", Tico asked with a slight worry in his voice. "Yes, I'm here", I replied, silently hoping that Richie had put on his shirt before he opened the door. "So Jon, do you want to go now?", Tic asked again, making me gasp. "Just a second", I said and washed my hands, then opening the door and being greeted by a slightly worried Tic. "Are you okay?", he whispered and I nodded, passing him and going into the bedroom again. There I took my suitcase and one of Richie's leather jackets and turned around to leave. In the hallway there were standing Rich and Tico, both waiting for me. Tico had a happy look in his eyes, while Richie looked confused and fearful. "So Tic, can I speak to Richie for a second?", I asked and he nodded, leaving us alone in the living room. "Why are you leaving babes?", Richie asked confused and a little desperate. "Look Rich, you broke up with me and everybody knows it. It would be kinda weird if I just stayed here like nothing happened. But I'll find a way to get back here, trust me", I whispered and kissed his warm lips once again. "Okay, but please don't leave me alone this night", he whined and hugged me, making me chuckle a bit. "I look what I can do, okay?", I asked and he nodded, pecking my cheek. I winked at him and headed for the living room door, opening it and seeing Tic exactly at the same spot he stood before we left to talk. "So are you ready Jon?", he asked and I nodded, grabbing my suitcase and putting on Richie's warm leather jacket. I then hugged him and got out of the front door with Tic. He led me to his car and placed my suitcase in it, then gesturing me to get in. The whole ride we stayed silent, even when we were there we didn't speak much. Tic was in thoughts about something and I was constantly thinking of Richie. What was he doing right now? Was he okay with being alone for at least a while? I thought and thought, and almost didn't hear that Tico was calling me. "Jon, are you hungry?" "No, but thanks for asking", I quickly replied, even though I was lying a bit. I was hungry, I was hungry for Richie's love, for his touch, his smile, his winks and his lips. I think I was a bit horny for him right then, but I was fine with that. I finally took a quick glance at the clock, seeing that it was already 9pm. So I had to start my plan. "Tico?", I called our drummer, making him enter the living room where I was sitting pretty quickly after that. "What's up Jonny?", he asked a little worried and I almost chuckled a bit because of his look. "So Tic, I think I forgot something at Richie's", I said, making him roll his eyes. "Okay, then I'm gonna get it for you", he replied and almost left through the door, but I quickly called him again. "So Tic, I think I can get it by myself", I tried again and he nodded his shoulders, a do-it-if-it-makes-you-happy-look in his eyes. I then quickly got my suitcase to change into warmer clothes, smiling all the way. My choice fell on some black leather pants and Richie's big blue sweater, something that I really love. After I was done with changing, I quickly threw Richie's leather jacket on and left through the front door. I was running down the street, happiness and excitement filling my heart. By then, I only wanted Richie to touch me, nothing else. The snow was covering my boots and colored them in white, making me laugh like a little child. After all, I felt free. So I picked up the pace a little more, finally arriving at Richie's front door. I knocked like there was no tomorrow and jumped into his arms as soon as he opened the door. "Jonnybabes, what are you doing here?", he asked a little confused and I chuckled. "I told you I would come back, you little weirdo", I whispered and pecked his cheek. "Your little weirdo", he replied and connected his lips to mine, kissing me lovingly.