Lullaby | Brahms Heelshire |

Chapter 28

"Danny?" Leah's nervous voice asked. 

At any other time I would have felt degraded if someone saw me in this vulnerable of a position, but the sudden relief I felt far outweighed my embarrassment. I spat into the toilet and sighed before flushing and turning to her. Her brows were knit in concern and she smiled a sympathetic smile. 

"Are you sure you don't want me to cover for you?" 

I stood slowly, limbs shaking, and made my way to to the sink. "I honestly don't know Leah. I don't know know what's wrong with me,"

Leah followed me inquisitively to the sink. 

"What do you mean?" 

I sighed and squeaked the cold water faucet on. "I've just been feeling really queasy almost every morning, and a few times during the day." I said, reaching my hands into the cold stream. The icy water against my hot skin felt soothing. 

"Almost every morning?" Leah asked appearing behind me in the mirror. 

I nodded before cupping my hands and splashing the frigid water into my face. It felt so good after feeling so over heated. I inhaled a breath after the water drained off my face, and reached for the paper towels. 

"I think it might just be a drop in my blood sugar or something. Although I'm not sure why it's started being bad recently." 

"For how long?" 

I dabbed my glistening face with the harsh paper towel as I thought. "About a week." I finally calculated.

"Have you been sensitive to smells?" 

What an odd question. How would she know? "Yeah a few strong ones. Why?" 

"Danny, when was your last period?"

Did she think I was pregnant or something? I let out a laugh and shook my head at her question. "No I'm not..." then paused, face falling. 

Was I? No I couldn't be. Brahms and I hadn't had allot of... well... actually we had. And never used protection. Why would we? I felt my face turn white and quickly fumbled through my pockets to find my phone. 

This can't be happening. 

I shakily grabbed my device and opened up my calendar. My eyes flicked back and forth across the screen nervously. I almost felt like I was going to drop it as I calculated the numbers in my head. I turned to Leah with a grave expression.

"It's been 4 weeks."

~*~
All I could do was stare blankly at my computer screen, face still white as a sheet. After talking to Leah for a bit longer in the bathroom, I came back to my desk and she took off somewhere. I'm not really sure where. 

I tried my best to swallow down my fear but I couldn't. Did Brahms get me pregnant? I covered my face with my hands and concealed my embarrassment. Why didn't we use anything? Why didn't I care? Did Brahms not care? And oh... what was Brahms going to think? 

A light thump suddenly caught my attention and I looked up to find Leah standing on the other side of my desk next to a plastic grocery bag she had just dropped on it. 

"What's this?" I asked reaching for the bag. 

"I thought you'd want to take a test," she answered. 

I looked in the bag to find two small boxes of pregnancy tests. My eyes flicked back to her and I forced my lips into a smile. "Thank you." I said. I was so grateful for Leah, I just didn't want to be in this situation. 

She looked at me expectantly for a second before exclaiming, "Are you going to take them?"
I stared down at the boxes wishing I never had to see them. But the question of whether or not I was pregnant was burning such a hole through my brain that I couldn't put the tests off. I blew out a nervous breath. 

"Let's do it."

~*~ 

My hand visibly shook as I held up the small test. It was almost Funny that such a cheap piece of plastic could hold my fate. Almost. My heart beat so loud I could hear the blood pumping in my ears. 

"What does it say?" Leah asked from the other side of the stall door.

"It still needs a minute!" I responded, slightly annoyed she kept asking every two seconds. 

I squinted into the small circular window to see if I could spot any signs of a line. Nothing yet. I closed my eyes and took slow breaths in through the nose and out through the mouth, trying to pull myself together. I almost felt like I was going to fall apart. 

This was taking forever!

I thought about Brahms and how worried he had been lately. He did such a good job trying to take care of me. He was so sweet. A smile crept on my lips. I could have really used one of his encompassing hugs. 

A knock on the stall suddenly popped me out of my thoughts. "Anything?" Leah asked.
I had almost forgot. 

I glanced down at the stick and my veins turned to ice. Contained in the circular window was a dark, dark plus sign.

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