Darkness Within

Dreams

What does it mean,
when you are standing over the edge and you know you are about to fall but when you do, you awake from the dream you just had... but you don't think about it ...
Cutting is an addiction you cant get rid of.. promises are made and broken because of it what's the point? When you are dreaming but you aren't, i have faint scars no one sees or realizes about.. how do you bring up an addiction you use to have? Or still had till 2 weeks ago? Yes 2 weeks ago i managed to last 2 weeks... but every time i fall asleep it comes up... like it wants me to carry on... ill tell you the dream..
i am in a club dancing with friends, but i needed the toilet but as i go to the toilet there are girls in there.. skinny girls beautiful girls, they finally leave but you are left with the reflection of yourself that you can't stand to look at, all you see are flaws and mistakes problems that aren't there, but you don't know that, you just know that you need to get out of there so you do, you ran for it, you ran from all the shames, problems everything!! And finally you're there at Europa where you know they can't save you... you cut and cut cause its an addiction you can't get rid of... and finally its time... but as soon as you jump.
You awaken from your dream back to reality... back to the place where you aren't happy at. Its a constant cycle you can't escape from.
But don't worry it was only just a dream.