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Chapter 17- jump....

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ziva's PoV-
I wake up it's really early I check the time 3am oh my I need to stop doing this I decided to get a quick shower and get dressed into some black ripped jeans and a plain white t shirt with my khaki sugg life hoodie and my dr Martins I sit on the ledge of the balcony it's pitch black without the lights of London on I decided to go on my phone I head onto insta.....
Slut
Bitch
Ugly
Cunt
Cut yourself
Starve yourself
Kill your self....
The last one hit me than ever before they never normally but I feel the urge until I hear my name....
"Ziva sweet don't do that" I hear someone say I slowly turn around to see my mar standing there
"Mar I'm so sorry I just can't do this anymore" I say
"You need to live my zi because you have a loving family and you have so many friends from strictly" she says
"But I put joe and Di through so much pain I want them to be happy" I say
"Well they are happy my darling I saw them with you and they smile so broadly with you I know that it would break them if you jumped" she says
"But mar they would be better of" I say shakily
"No zi my darling they would be so sad without you my zi they love you as there own" she says smiling
"You really think so" I say
"Darling I know so now get off that ledge and get your backs packed it's like a bomb site in there" she says
"I know right so amazing at making messes" I say proudly
"I love you Ziva talk soon" she says
I smile at her as she slowly fades away I pack my bags it's around 7am wow I've been talking to me mar for ages!
I walk downstairs to see aj and Johannes at the reception...
"Morning boys" I say smiling
"Morning zi how are you" aj asks smiling
"I'm good as always how are you to" I ask
"I'm good" Johannes says
"I'm good as well shall we get breakfast" aj asks
"Yeah I'd love to" I say as we walk to the breakfast parlour I just make a smoothie because I'm not hungry I sit down and watch as everyone arrives looking tired but happy I got sit on the sofas and think about everything that happened this morning I can't believe what me mar said to me
it would break them if you jumped
It played on my mind for ages....
So they love me?
What if they didn't meet me?
Would they be happy with me?
My minds went into overdrive I slowly sit back on the sofa and think and think.....
Then I feel someone's hands on my shoulders I flinch and jump up of the sofa and whipped around to see Graziano standing there.....
"Sorry Graziano" I say
"It's okay are you alright" he asks
"Yeah just got a few things on my mind that's all nothing to worry about" I say smiling
"Okay were all ready to head off to London now" he says smiling
"Okay im ready" I say grabbing my bags
I get onto the bus and slide across the bus straight to the back....
"BAGS THIS SEAT" I shout jumping into it
"BAGS SITTING NEXT TO ZI" scace shouts
Scace sits next to me and we watch joe and Di sit next to each other cuddling together me and scace we're dying from the cuteness of them both....
"Wait zi I'm going to get a pic okay" scace whispered smiling
"Okay want me to I've got a better angle" I say
"Yeah go on" she says
I point the camera on scace dying and then I zoom in on them and think...
How did it end up here?
Then I put that in her story and I get a quick picture of them before they noticed us smiling we quickly look at ranj dancing through the isle they look at us and smiled....
"I can't believe I ended up here" I say to scace
"We love you so much zi" scace says smiling
I'm so lucky to be here...

Holla, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and I'd like to shout out to Youtubers-joanne I love you so much my lovely frey you make me feel so happy and you pull me through hard times and I'm eternally grateful for that I love you so!💗xx
next chapter- let's get you through this.....
Bec x