The Loneliest Person (Someone Like Me) [Mina x Sana]

Chapter 4: Saddest Discovery

After Momo and Sana went out to go shopping, Mina found herself flipping through a large stack of magazines that Nayeon had left by her bed during Nayeon's attempts to "organize" her belongings. The magazines all featured interviews by Twice throughout their career. Mina cringed with embarrassment while looking at some of their earlier photoshoots.

She flipped through the magazines in chronological order, nostalgically following Twice's evolution through time. She could see the members' faces maturing with each photoshoot and she could feel the members' friendships with each other deepening when they spoke about each other in the interview sections.

Mina focused on the pictures of Sana the most, of course, musing to herself that Sana was one of the members whose face changed the most since debut. The older girl had lost the baby fat in her adorably chubby cheeks. Sana's eyes were still as bright as ever, but she had gained a smoldering kind of maturity in her gaze that perfectly captured the cutie-sexy nickname that Sana had used since debut. Mina bit her lower lip as she looked at Sana's pictures from the August 2017 edition of Vivi magazine. Sana was definitely prettier in real life, but she was incredibly beautiful in this photoshoot as well.

"I want to see you," Mina thought to herself, gazing into Sana's powerful eyes. Even though it was just a picture, she could feel her heart beating faster. But what would she do when Sana returned later? Continue to pretend like Sana was just a friend? Act like Sana's gazes and touches did nothing to her when in reality she could set their dorm ablaze with the desire in her heart?

Mina sighed heavily, annoyed by her own cowardice. If only she could be more like Sana, braver and more affectionate, maybe one day she would be able to admit her feelings to Sana. She sighed again and turned the page. Mina found herself looking at the interview section. In this particular magazine, two members each described another member in the interviews, and Sana was one of the two members who described Mina. The young girl read through Sana's response:

"If you compare Mina with an animal, she's a penguin. She has loneliness in her so she follows humans like penguins. She has to have someone beside her. Should I say that she gives me vibes to protect her?"

It was an incredibly accurate description of how Sana usually treated her. Sana was always by her side, taking care of her and protecting her even when Mina didn't even know she needed the care or protection. Mina also biasedly felt that Sana treated her more gently than she treated any other member of Twice. Whereas Sana was quite playful and aggressive when showing her affection to the others, Sana always treated Mina like a precious treasure. Sana even babied her more than she babied their maknae Tzuyu. Mina smiled as she thought of Sana's fondness for her. Even though they were only friends, Sana's love made her feel warm and safe.

Mina read Sana's response one more time. "Should I say that she gives me vibes to protect her?" Mina wondered how in the world she was giving off vibes of needing protection. Prior to realizing that she liked Sana, Mina didn't think she treated Sana any differently than she treated the other Twice members. She was suddenly curious what the vibes she supposedly sent out looked like.

Mina picked up her phone and opened YouTube. She knew that their Once were very good at compiling clips of just about everything imaginable related to Twice. They compiled funny moments and savage moments, and even obscure things like the members sneezing or Momo doing her circle gesture. If Mina was giving off vibes to Sana, someone had surely captured those moments as well.

She searched for "Mina and Sana" and a long list of compilation videos and fan MVs jumped out at her. Mina began watching the videos and she smiled nostalgically as familiar memories came back to her. She saw the food truck her fans gave her on her first birthday after joining Twice and saw how Sana hugged her so warmly when she cried. She watched Sana covering her with an umbrella during a snowy winter fan meet and poking her cheek with mischievous affection.