a letter from a teddy bear in someones room

the things i see everyday.

  Sunday night. Tomorrow is school, but it doesn't seem like she is going to sleep. Sure she is in bed...but she has been there the whole day. Occasionally she got up and walked out the room, but it didn't take long before she was back to the same position. It's like this almost everyday. I don't understand her. She has so much to do, yet she just stays in bed, watching whatever on her phone. Is she really that lazy? I really don't know why she does this. Often I will hear her cry quietly from under the blankets. I don't know why, but she just continues to lay there, not doing anything about it. If she is sad, why don't do something fun? It can't be fun to lay there 24/7. Once or twice a week I will not see her like this. Instead she will get up early and go to school. She will be back pretty late, saying to her mom that she was in the library studying. She cleans her room, sometimes even changes the bed sheets. A few times she even exercised and did yoga. She will take 10 minutes to meditate, go take a shower and put on a face mask after. She will even put on pyjamas, something that doesn't happen often. But...the next day she is back to the "norm", and it's even worse than before that "energised day". She cries more, sometimes nonstop for a few hours. She will not sleep, and even when she tries she just lays unable to do it. The next morning she doesn't go to school, lying to her mother that she actually did. She also does this fucking disgusting thing. She will eat and eat. Bring more and more food into the room, eat it, and then throw up. She will take cups, and just sit and throw up for hours. It's like this for many days, before once again it's time for an energised day. Those better days are getting fewer and fewer, and I'm getting concerned. There is something wrong with her. This can't be healthy at all. I feel sorry for her, but at the same time i really don't get it. Just stop! Like it isn't that hard to get up and get a life. She has so much work to do, I've seen the papers from teachers. Honestly why the fuck did she get into upper secondary school if she isn't willing to put in the work. What a lazy piece of shit.