I'm not okay, but that's okay. Not everyone is doing okay, some are much better than hiding their feelings than others (I know I was, until the 23rd of Jan when I had the worst mental breakdown of my life). It left me feeling hollow and sad and just lonely. Feeling all of this made realize that maybe I do need to start opening up to prevent all my bottled emotions from bursting out again and leaving me feeling the way I did. So, here I go, pouring out my life from the beginning to help me process my emotions much better.
I'm a nineteen year old male with BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) coupled with anxiety and depression (I hit the jackpot on this one). My disorder basically means that when I see myself, I find the smallest of flaws and fixate on that for an unhealthy amount of time. And, just when I think I'm overcoming one flaw... BOOM!! comes another. So that, coupled with anxiety and depression could very well leave someone wanting to crouch in the corner of a dark room, i know at times it almost lead me there. But, I'm blessed to be surrounded by the most supportive friends and family who I know are there for me and always know how to get me (even temporarily) out of that dark place. It leaves me wondering, however, as to how in the world did I ever get to this point in my life, and then it hit me. All those times when I was younger I used to suppress a lot of my emotions to get me through the day (you'll see why in a few).
ESTÁS LEYENDO
I'm Not Okay
Historia Corta"I'm not okay", not the type of thing to hear/see, right? that's because we always tend to bottle our emotions for the world (and ourselves) not to deal with, until one day it just violently erupts in our faces leaving us hollow. That's exactly what...
