Hard to Love (Reader x Severus Snape) COMPLETED

Chapter 9: Can't Be..

Erin's POV

Snape couldn't have known about Draco and I, could he? He couldn't, unless he saw us...

"Rin, are you okay?" Draco asked

"Uh, yeah! I was just lost in thought." I said shakily

"Oh?" Kaylee said

"Nothing important, Kaylee." When I said that, Draco look disappointed.. god, what have I done?

"Ms. Smith," I heard from behind me, I turned around and it was Dumbledore, "may I speak with you? alone."

"Of course, Professor." I said, I got up and we walked out of the Great Hall.

"Ms. Smith, your mom is here. She wishes to speak to you." he said quietly

"You let muggle's in the castle?" I whispered

"Just this once, it is an urgent thing that needs to be taken care of."

We went to his office and I hugged my mother

"Mum, what's going on?" I asked

"Your letter, I wanted to speak with you face to face about it. It is best." she motioned for me to sit down. "You have witnessed someone die, my best friend and his wife, your.." she hesitated

"My what, mum?" I said quietly

"Your actual parents, and before you get mad. Just hear me out, Erin." she said quickly, I nodded for her to continue, "Your parents knew they were going to die, by Voldemort.. they didn't know you would survive, but they had us check just in case. My best friend was your dad's bestest friend, the only one who was there for him, the only wizard hed trust, that is why he is always so angry. You were only a couple months old when this happened, so I don't expect you to remember it, Erin. You father believes your so evil because Voldemort couldn't kill you, he tried to block out all magic. He tried to make you go to a muggle school, this is a lot to take in. If our mad at me, I completely understand if you don't want to come back home, but I'd like you to for summer.." It can't be.. I must stay calm around her...

"Ms. Smith." Dumbledore said, "If I might add, if you talk to Mr. Potter, he can relate to it..."

"Yes, Professor, and you'll always be my mother," I hugged my mum tightly and she felt relieved, I let go, "nothing will change that. I want to come home but I don't want to see the thing I used to call my father. You should've left him when you had the chance, Mum." I said and got up

"Honey, I know.. I will if you'll come home this summer. Just please." She teared up a little.

"I will mum, please don't cry." I said shakily

"Professor, may I walk her back to wherever she was before this? Before I leave?" She turned to him and asked.

"Of course Mrs. Smith." He smiled

We walked down to the Great Hall, apparently Draco had been looking for me and caught up to me.

"Rin!" He said panting "I've been looking everywhere for you."

"Hi, Draco. Mum this is Draco."

"Nice to meet you young man, Erin always talks about how much she likes your hair." she giggled

"Mum!" I exclaimed

Draco chuckled and said, "Nice to meet you Mrs. Smith."

My mum smiled and looked at me and gave me the 'Is this a boyfriend?' look, I shook my head and we all 3 continued to the Great Hall.

"Well, this is it... I'll see you whenever, probably summer." she smiled and hugged me

"Mom, don't. You're going to make me cry. I don't want to cry." I said tearing up, I hugged her back and we both let go

"Well, Draco. In the summer you can come over anytime, and I see why she likes your hair so much." She motioned for him to hug her, they hugged and let go. He smiled "Very nice to meet you though, Draco."

"You too, Mrs. Smith." he said and walked back into the Great Hall.

"So my brothers? Are they blood, or?"

"They are blood, sweetie. Your parents wanted a little more time with you since you were the only girl, Your brothers understood what was going on, they called me mum but were pained every time they did. They went to live with your grandmother, so they wouldn't have to." she said

"I still see you as my mother, nothing will ever change that. I promise.." I said almost crying

"Don't cry sweetie, It's all alright." She kissed my forehead. She pulled something out of her purse, it was a picture of s lady with red hair, the same green eyes as me, and pale, like me. "This is a picture of her, you look a lot like her..." She cupped my face and handed me the picture, I looked at it.

I handed it back to her and said "You're my mother, you are. Okay?" she nodded and smiled.

"Dumbledore wanted to talk to me before I left, I might have a teaching job here.. Don't freak out or anything sweetie.. it's not a definite yes." she said

"It would probably be muggle studies, since you're a muggle." I chuckled

"Maybe, don't get excited or anything and tell people. Alright, I'll let you get back to your friends. I love you, Rin." she said

"I love you too, mum." We hugged one last time and I waved goodbye when I walked back into the Great Hall.

I walked in and sat down at the Gryffindor table again

"Everything okay, Rin?" Kaylee asked

"I'll tell you all later." I smiled, part of me wanted to break down, knowing I had witnessed someone die.. It killed me inside, she wasn't my actual mom but she still took me in, the thing I used to call my father still hates me, regardless if I was an infant. It's stupid... to blame me... I was so ready to cry and shit... I noticed that Snape wasn't in here, he'd probably understand what happened.. more than Kaylee or Draco, I'd talk to Harry but right now, I need to let all the crying out. "I'm gonna use the bathroom." I said

I walked to Snape's classroom, I knocked. "Come in" I heard him say

I walked in and closed the door. "Professor... I"

"Ms. Smith, if this is about last night. I'm not talking about it. Period."

"It isn't" I said as I started to cry and fall to my knees. I started sobbing, "I can't.."

He rushes over and kneeled down, "Smith... what happened."

I told him everything that happened, I kept crying, it felt good to cry. "I can't Professor.. It's too much, I couldn't show weakness in front of them, I kept it all down inside and I couldn't take it anymore.."

He held me and I hadn't even noticed... I felt calmed, I was still crying slightly, but I ended up falling asleep in his arms..

Snape's POV

"Insolent little girl... You make me feel things that I thought weren't there anymore.. how?"

There was a knock at the door, "Come in" I said, it was Dumbledore

"I figured she'd come to you... she has been through too much to not cry." he said

"She's asleep." I said calmly

"Her mother is the new Muggle Studies teacher, she could've gone to her.. but she chose you Severus, interesting." he smiled

"Headmaster, don't. I feel nothing for this insolent little girl." I lied

"Right, well. No one is in the halls, you can take her to her room. Check on her tomorrow, if you wish." He said and walked out.

Stupid, little girl. How do you bring out my emotions, I was holding her princess style. I brushed her (h/c) hair out of her face. Too beautiful, why would she like an old dungeon bat like me?

I carried her up to her room, laid her on the bed and looked at her for a minute, I kissed her forehead and left. What has she done to me?

End of chapter!

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