I am tired. I've realized this as the months went by with no breaks. I keep growing increasingly tired. Who knew? I give every single day over 100% of my effort without any breaks.
Note to self; Don't do this, relax a little.
Which brings me to my next point; why try so hard doing something that doesn't make me happy when I'm going to die one day anyway? The answer is a complete mystery to me, I know it's completely pointless but there's something in me that forces me to. Having a job means being successful, and I want to be successful.. but why? How can I become successful doing something I hate doing? What defines being successful? Having money? A nice car? A big house? Can't I be successful without meeting this criteria?
I want to sleep.
