Life as i Didn't Know it

Chapter 21

By the time we reached the school I didn’t even notice, I was too wrapped up in thinking about my life. I walked out of the car to be greeted with the cool winter air and  the chill breeze of the wind. “the bells going to ring any minute now so I guess I’ll see you guys at lunch?” I said grabbing my books and fumbling to get everything I needed.

“Yea sounds good, we have a lot of catching up too do” the way Kyle said that I knew he meant more than just about school and his trip. I'm glad I had him to talk too about Zane and all those problems, because no one but him knows about it and I would have probably exploded by now if I had to keep it all in all the time. I'm dying to get some sort of opinion on this. Zane is confusing the heck out of me with him asking the hang out then ditching me then acting sorry then acting like he couldn’t care less.

I walked into the school and to my first class which I had with Zane. I noticed him surrounded by his friends, talking and laughing. I tore my eyes away from them and took a seat in my usual spot. I stared at the front of the classroom waiting for the teacher to come in. I bet Zane didn’t even notice I walked in, he probably didn’t care about me at all. I was a fool to believe any of it.

Zane’s POV

I could smell her as soon as she walked in the room, but I didn’t show her any attention. I continued to pretend to have fun with these people that I call my friends, even when half of them will go and talk shit about me behind me back next period.

I only have a couple real friends and there is only a certain amount of people that I care about and one of those people were sitting in this classroom, in her usual seat waiting for class to begin. I want to explain so bad to her about why I left her to go with Sarah but I couldn’t. it’s pack business and it’s important.

I wanted her to just forget about that already so we can be friends. I snuck a glance over in her direction to see her texting away on her phone. What bothered me though was the smile on her face, who could she be talking to that made her smile like that without even being around?

I don’t know why but I felt jealous at the thought of her talking to some other guy. I groaned at the thought of her going out with Alex tonight. they’ve been putting off for like two weeks now and I was hoping they would simply forget about it, but I'm not that lucky. Tonight I have too see her leave with another guy.

I turned away from her as the teacher walked in, but out of the corner of my eye I saw that she glanced at the teacher then went back to her phone like it was more important.

“OK class get in pair, you can choose your partners but then you will be paired up with another group to act out a scene” the teacher bellowed. I looked to my right seeing Claire, that was good enough. We both nodded, knowing that we would be partners.

I looked over at Marissa to see she had paired up with some red head girl, the girl had an eyebrow piercing and a nose piercing. She wore all black and looked anti-social. I just gave her a weird looked before turning back towards Claire.

“Ok I'm going to give each group a number which will go into this hat. I will pick out two numbers at a time and those two groups will be partners ok?” so basically she let us get into groups of two then she would pair us into groups of four? What was the point of that?

Oh so we could at least have someone we wanted…. I see her reasoning now. she gave me and Claire a number seven and then put it in her little hat. This was wasting a lot of time, not that I was complaining.

“Group three and group six, group eight and group one, group two and group nine, group seven and group ten” I looked around too see who ten was and i saw the red head start walking over too us. oh no, she’s partners with Marissa. I silently prayed in my mind that I was wrong and I was not partners with the red head and Marissa.

Ever since that day me and Marissa haven’t talked at all, well she hasn’t responded to anything I said anyway.  I'm not sure if I should look at this as something bad or good. I saw Marissa go up to the teacher and get a piece of paper with our skit that we had to act out.

She then brought it back and threw it on the table. It said we were supposed to make up a story of love and betrayal. “I have an idea. how about two people are so madly in love then the guy goes and cheats on the girl, breaking her heart in the process. In the end he regrets everything he’s done and wants her back but she’s already moved on” I noticed how Marissa looked directly into my eyes as she said it.

I scoffed, that was nothing like us. “Why Is it always the guy who cheats?” I shot back. “Because they are always the ones letting the girls down” this was no longer about the play and I could see that. “maybe they don’t always mean to let them down. Maybe the guy is just trying to do what's right” I seethed out,

“Well the guy is wrong, there is no reason for breaking a girl to pieces” her voice held anger in it, it was all finally coming out. All the things she was feeling.

“There is a reason for everything, you don’t always get what you want” my voice leaked anger, she just doesn’t get it does she?

“Whoa guys it’s just a story calm down” the little red head piped up. Marisa took a deep breath and let it out. She looked away from me and down at the desk instead. I don’t see why we always fight. My anger vanished as soon as it appeared though.  I just wanted to be done with this all and be able to talk to her.

“Whatever” she mumbled while still looking down at the desk. It frustrated me how strong willed she was, she would never just listen to someone and believe them.  she should be able to trust me, I’m her mate and even if I'm not able to fully be with her she can always count on me when she needs me.

I simply sighed, I didn’t want to fight with her. I looked away and let Claire and the little red head write the skit. I would do my part in acting it out when it’s all done. The bell rang a few minutes later and I couldn’t help but be relived. Marissa shot out of her seat and walked out of the classroom before anyone else had even made a move to get up.

I smiled at how typical that was of her, no matter how mad she gets she doesn’t storm out of class. She waits for it to finish like the good girl she is. That’s the way I know her and it’s the way I like her. I got my stuff and walked out of class, it was going to be one long day.

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I saw Marissa at lunch, she was sitting with Kyle and Sean. Ever since Kyle stood up for her that day he’s been more of a friend to her than me. he didn’t even tell me when he was coming back nor did he even say hi. I was his friend first and this is the first time I’ve seen him since he left.

It kind of hurt too lose your friend to a girl, especially one that I didn’t have the best relationship with. I decided to make  a bold move, I picked up my trey of food and walked over  to where Marissa Kyle and Sean were sitting.

“Hey” I said happily while pretending I didn’t notice how they all stopped talking. “Uh what brings you here?” Marissa asked with curiosity. Her voice didn’t hold one shred of anger or anything negative, simply curiosity.

“Well I haven’t seen Kyle for a while so I decided to come and sit with you guys” I said. I looked into Marissa’s warm brown eyes. they stared back at me with longing and sadness. She never let her true emotions surface, she was to strong to let anyone in. But I could see through it, I can see all the pain and hurt she has bubbled up in there and one day it’s all going to come out.

“Um ok” she muttered then went back to eating her food. It looked like my presence wasn’t bothering her at all, but I could see the way she slightly hunched over and busied herself with something else that I was making her a little un comfortable. I knew her better than people think I do. I know her because I care about her. if only she could see that. 

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i guess this one was more of a filler since much didn't happen, but thanks to everyone for reading! 

next upload - monday or tuesday