Around Halloween 2017, it felt different. I didn't tell anyone obviously. I didn't really know a lot about lgbtq. I didn't even know about gender identitys. All I knew is that I just hated being a girl. Still do. Obviously. But I didn't think much of it. I thought I just hated girl and that was it.
Until two months later, I came across this test on YouTube that tells you about your sexuality. You answer questions. Each question has a number of points. And at the end if you have more of the number of points is your sexuality. I got Pansexual. Which at the time, I had no clue what it was.
pan·sex·u·al
/panˈsekSH(əw)əl/
adjective
1.
no sexual choice into genders or gender identitys.
I showed my mom, and told her I was Pan. Which at the time I didn't even know what coming out was or how scary it actually is. What day I started doing so much research about sexualitys and came across LGBTQ+. I started learning more sexualitys and I found so much about myself that I didn't even know about myself. At this time, I was Bisexual. I'm currently Polysexual. Then I started to find out about gender identitys and even more sexualitys/romantic attractions.
bi·sex·u·al
/ˌbīˈsekSH(o͞o)əl/
adjective
1.
sexually attracted to both male and female.
pol·y·sex·u·al
/ˌpälēˈsekSHo͞oəl/
adjective
attracted to multiple genders/sexes. but not all.
I was looking at a lot of gender identitys. Just to see which one sounded like me. Then I saw Genderfluid. Which, isn't a choice. Just so you know.
gen·der-flu·id
adjective
adjective: genderfluid
not related yourself to a mixed gender. (gender changes)
I was actually Genderfluid for a long time. I told my friends. I got lots of support and love. I didn't have any gender dysphoria until I started hated feel feminine and how I had long hair and I couldn't do anything about it. My parents wouldn't let me get a haircut. I was actually really upset. I didn't really know what to do.
Fast forward. I figured out I was nonbinary. I was happy that I figured out who I really was. And more happened soon..
gen·der dys·pho·ri·a
/ˈjendər disˈf ôrēə/
noun
MEDICINE
feeling one's emotional identity as male or female to be opposite biological sex.
non·bi·na·ry
/ˌnänˈbīnərē/
adjective
adjective: non-binary
1.
not relating to, male or female.
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