I'm happy and heartbroken at the same time
Relationships take too much of a mental toll on me so I guess that means I'm not ready for one
I make myself miserable the entire time
I sit there and worry myself to death about when are they are going to leave, I barely get to enjoy the time that they are here
When they finally do leave, I feel like I can breathe again
I don't know if I push them away or if they were never meant to stay to begin with
But my mind is finally at peace for the first time in weeks
It's finally quiet
I don't have to stress about them leaving once they are already gone
I can't hate someone for not loving me back and I can go to sleep knowing I did the best that I could do with what I was given
I put my all into every person I've ever loved
Honestly, i put too much of myself into them and it always leaves me feeling empty and hollow and I have to stop doing that
I have to start waiting to see if they want it first before I dive headfirst into it
It's crazy that I feel relieved in a way
I really don't know what all of this means
But this is where I'm at right now
This poem is as messy as I feel
YOU ARE READING
Bull in a China Cabinet
PoetryMy life through personal poetry The punctuation and sentence structure isn't precise on purpose. My favorite poet is Rupi Kaur and she's my biggest writing inspiration and I agree with her when she said she doesn't want punctuation & her perfection...
