Me as a person.

Me growing as a person.

Growing up I hated people. I wouldn't talk to anyone. I would stay by myself. I had no social experience up until I was 15. I'm 16 at the point that I'm writing this. So that was still pretty recent. When I was born I lost a lot of air. And from what I remember hearing it messed with my brain a lot and from that my anger would get out of control. from the research I am doing that came from the Amygdala, The part of the brain that processes fear, triggers anger, and motivates us to act. It alerts us to danger and activates the fight or flight response. And also some of my anger issues growing up were from my dad living in Tennessee. and me and my mom living all the way in California. People would pick on my a lot as a kid. And that made me into a rude person. And when I would get mad I would flip out and fight people. I was transferred to a program in school called the PERL program which stands for Program for Effective Relationships and Learning. It's basically a special education mainly for people who had anger problems. I also took pills to help control the anger. I joined that program at the end of 3rd grade. I was 8 years old. In the middle of 7th grade. I don't know what it was but something changed in my brain but I wasn't that angry anymore. 8 years since joining the program. here I am. I'm just about to get out of the program. I stopped taking those pills about a month ago. Ever since I stopped being so angry I slowly started opening up to people and making friends. I always try to make my self a nicer and better person now. And I will never go back to how I was before. But no matter how much I try I still feel like it won't ever be enough and I hate myself for it.