I really love the fact that I am transgender but it's hard out here I know everyone has there own struggles and some is worse then mines but it hurts. Being transgender isn't easy at all but then again nothing In life is easy I tell myself but dealing with being disowned and hated then on top of that feeling hate towards my own self that makes it even more hard I don't hate myself I just hate my body I don't really understand why my brain has to feel one way but my body is another.,growing up I never knew the word "transgender" all I knew growing up was that I was wired I didn't like what other "girls" liked I didn't even like wearing what "girls" wear I remember going shopping and wishing my dad would get me the same clothes he got my brother I would even run to something I liked in the boys section an tell my dad to get it for my brother when security I wanted it looking back I'm sure I could of told my dad I felt different an that I wanted to wear boy clothes but he was just so set on having a boy and a girl he always said how he was lucky cause he got one of each I just couldn't burst his bubble like that my dads happiness was my world so I tried to be a "perfect lil girl" but I hated is so much before I knew it . It was like I was a actor or something.
