My Sweet Grave Digger

there is nothing

Monitors ticking,
a burning within,
every last word,
moving under my skin-
I can't understand why you'd do this,
And I'll never know why,
Now i'm stuck in this hospital bed,
when I just wanted to die-

In a deep sleep, here it's always night,
I walked through a limbo,
deprived of all light-

When I awoke, I had gone to far,
now every breath I take fills my lungs with tar-
Coughing and sputtering,
the tub fills with blood,
I suddenly remember,
what i'm afraid of-

My intentions are warped,
now sinister to the core-
There is nothing,
death is beckoning,
just as before.