Isnt it Lovely?

Hospitalized With a Beauty

A about a year ago I was sent to the hospital for the third time in my life. Not cause something was physically wrong but cause something was mentally wrong. So my parents locked me in a place MBH. (Michiana behavior health) once again I felt betrayal. But I was used to it by now. A few days before I was on my Snapchat and saw this girl that made my eyes light up. And when I walked in that small room of that hospital there she was. It was like I was meant to know her. She smiled at me and I smiled back. The next day at breakfast I told her that I saw her on my ex's Snapchat and thought she was beautiful.  Was I really flirting already but I had to I could never see her again. Then she began to tell me all her secrets and I told mine. She always talked about a boy who didn't care but she loved. She showed me her burns and I showed her my cuts. After awhile I became annoyed. All she ever did was talk about this loser that would never care for her like I did. I wrote in my journal one day.
I like her so much but it doesn't seem to matter. She's caught up in that bum. Someone that doesn't even care. But I care. I see her pain. I see how she aches. And I wanna take care of her. I wanna love her like she deserves. I would never mistreat her. Maybe I'm just not good enough. Maybe I'm a piece of shit like he said.
After writing it she came up to me and asked what I wrote... So I let her read it and she told one of the Techs. So I got my journal taken away. One of my coping skills while I was trying to get better. They moved her to a different group so we wouldn't have any interaction and she never talked to me again.
She got put in residential care and I got out a week later. I was angry with her and felt like that what she gets. But then I understood why she told. I should've never liked someone who wasn't worth it.