Insensitive

Introduction

Hi, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH of JUNE, 2024!

While my Watty name on here is @AshleyMistMalichi, for the purpose of my true Story I am about to share with you, 

please think of me as 'Tee.' 

Also, my 'Ghost' of a ex will be referred to as my Blueprint Saga's Liars Moon Character, 'Duran,' as this is closest to his 'real' name as I legally dare to use.

The above video is in place for several reason's, and the dickheads that removed the former video that was there, I replaced the dead spaces of it, 

with Lily Allen's FUCK YOU!

I chose it because I always felt a sense of comfort in it. I was bullied a LOT as a child, by family members, friends of, as well as classmates, and even Teachers, growing up as a child.

I further wish to state that, none of the others, i. e. family, friends and College Students described in this True Story will NOT be referred to by their real names, not even the College Duran and I attended, nor any of it's Professors will be either.

The song 'Mad World' By Gary Jules best describes my turbulent scholastic childhood.

You might be wondering, "Why write about this now, after SO many years have already passed?"

The only answer I can give to you is this,

"Because IF in FINALLY telling others my True Story can save ONE life, help just ONE person NOT to have to LIVE with the harsh aftermath; and that denatured feeling of worthlessness, or that 'time-bomb-ticking-self-destructive urge' that ANY Narcissist leaves their 'prey' mentally injected with 'it'; and IF 'it' can be AVOIDED by just ONE person, my deep shame, my foolishness, and my HUGE mistake, will have not been useless."

_'Tee' 11/ 01/2018

Today is November 01, 2018

Not only is it an important day, it is a day for thankfulness.

And I have @wandering_red and their Work, Before 21

to thank for the words that have FINALLY un-locked this 'it' mystery.

You see lately, I have felt like, something was 'missing' from my life.

Like, something was just 'wrong' with me. Like, somehow, I was 'off' or just, I don't know how else to explain it, but I can say this, whatever it 'was' it kept on messing with my self-esteem, choices, feelings, heart, and mind, constantly.

Self-doubt is the WORST!

It controls SO many avenues of ones life and the things they are working for, to accomplish in it.

I tried my BEST to ignore 'it.'

Although I DOVE deep into H O U R S of FACTUAL Research for my Original Stories; and for my FanFic's; and followed Stephen King's awesome Writing advice, and wrote what I knew about; and I READ and Watched things IN my Genre of choice too; for MANY H O U R S, I did what I had to do, to succeed and NOT let 'it' bring me down.

So, finally I was ready, and pushing up my sleeves, I put to work my College Courses, consisting of: Creative Writing 101, Technical Writing 102; English 101 & 102, Computer 101, Public Speaking 101, Business 101, Psychology 101, Sociology 101 and 102, Abnormal Psychology 102; Marriage & Family, World History 101 & 102, Asian History 101, Therapeutic/Scientific Nutrition 101; Biology 101, Microbiology 101, Anatomy & Physiology 101, Ethics 101, Philosophy 101; and several of these Courses had their labs Credits attached to the Regular Course Credits too.