love lust | soonhoon

LUST 31

I don't love him...

"Well, if you say so but for me of what I'm seeing right now is actually the opposite of what you just said." Sabi ni Junhui sakin at tinapik ang aking balikat ko, at naglakad palabas na ng pinto.

Napalingon naman ako kay Jihoon na natutulog parin. Fuck.. he really looks cute even when he is sleeping and I couldn't help but to pinch those pink rosy cheeks.

Una ay nasabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako bakla, hinding hindi ako magkakagusto sa isang bakla at mas lalo hinding hindi ako malilibugan sa kapwa kong lalaki dahil hindi ako bakla.

Pero pucha, isang Lee Jihoon lang pala ang makakapagbend sa ruler ko. He is something else...

I held Jihoon's cheek and said,"if i'm going to love you, i will give all of me for you. Just..just don't betray me okay?"

—
woozi

I opened my eyes and I was greeted by the dorm room.. I saw myself wearing a pair of casual clothes as I walked myself around the room.

What am I doing here? I'm supposed to be in China—

*blag*

May narinig ako nabasag sa kwarto namin ni Soonyoung kaya agad kong pinuntahan yun ay pinihit ang  doorknob at binukas iyun.

Nakita ko si Soonyoung na nahulog ang hawak niyang guitar na nakagift wrap pa kaya agad ko siyang nilapitan.

"Soonsss!!!" Tawag ko sakanya pero hindi niya ako pinansin at nanlaki parin ang maliliit niyang mata kaya niyugyog ko ang balikat niya pero hindi ito tumalab para tumingin siya sakin.

Kaya agad kong sinundan ang tingin niya at nanliit ang mata ko dahil may dalawang tao na nakahiga sa kama.. ko?

Biglang may bumangon na lalaki at pagkataas niya ng ulo niya ay agad ako nagtaka dahil si Seungcheol iyun.. at nakatopless siya?

Dahan dahan ako lumapit sa pwesto nila hanggang sa nanlaki ang mata ko kung sino yung katabi niya...

I-its actually me and I'm sleeping naked..

Agad akong napaupo sa sahig at napatakip ng bibig dahil sa nakita ko.. I was about to stood up to talk Soonyoung..

"Magsama kayong mga manloloko kayo." biglang tumulo ang luha at binato ang gitara sa sahig...

"Baby!" Napadilat ako ng mata at hingal na hingal na napaupo ako sa kama. Napahawak agad ako sa ulo ko dahil biglang sumakit iyun.

"S-stop crying baby." Napatingin ako kay Soonyoung sa tabi ko at napahawak ako sa pisngi hangganh sa napagtanto ko na kanina pa pala ako naluluha.

Fuck.. what is the dream supposed to mean? Everything.. seems so real and I just don't want to happen. I don't want him to cry..

"Hey... look at me.. sshh. Don't cry Hoonie." He wrapped his arms to my waist and pulled me against his body. I snuggle my head into his neck and bit my lips as I couldn't stop my tears to fall.

His eyes in my dream.. he definitely looks hurt when he saw me and seungcheol.. tangina.

"Soonyoung don't leave me." Naiiyak kong sinabi sakanya.

I want his answer for me to be relaxed. I want his reassurement. I want to hear his words for me to hold onto it. Hindi ko kakayanin na iiwanan niya ako.

Selfish na kung selfish.. but Kwon Soonyoung is mine.

"Baby.. i won't leave you so stop crying. I don't even  want  to see you crying." Pagkasabi niya yun ay agad ko siyang niyakap ng sobrang higpit.

Kahit ito lang ang mapanghahawakan ko sayo.. I hope you wouldn't leave me when you find out everything I did to you..

—
3rd person

Agad na nilibot ni Momo ang kanyang mata pagkarating niya sa Korea. Her face obviously looks so exhausted especially that she was outside of Soonyoung's hotel room.. begging him to talk to her..

"Momo." Parang Zombie na dahan siyang lumingon ron at nakita niya si Seungcheol na nakatayo sa harap niya.

"You look so wasted. Ang pangit mo."napairap si Momo sa sinabi ni Seungcheol at sabay na napangisi lalo na maalala niya yung usapan nilang dalawa.

"So whom do we  start our plan?" Tanong ni Momo sakanya.

Seungcheol smirked at her,"let's start off with Jihoon."

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did i forgot to tell that this story is angst?

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