No Turning Back

"When your love is real, it's hard to just stop loving someone even if they have proven to you over and over again that they don't deserve your love. That's what makes breaking up so hard to do. You know it's time to go, but love just won't let you walk away. Real love wants to give them another chance, to try just one more time to make it work even when deep down inside you know... he'll never change."
                                                                                                                                                -Mr. Amari Soul

The night is cold and all I can hear is the deafening silence that surrounds me. The world seems so peaceful and calm at night. You wouldn't believe that it is chaotic, full of problems, struggles and pains that people are trying to overcome during the day.

It is past eleven in the evening, yet I am here lying in my bed wide awake. My mind just won't let me sleep. The picture I saw on Facebook keeps on playing in my mind and everytime I do that, tears won't stop falling from my eyes. It's like my tears have a button of its own that would automatically turn on whenever I am in pain. It was a picture of Jeremy, my boyfriend, kissing the cheeks of his so called "ex-girlfriend" Jenny in a pool from a known resort in our town. Just the thought of him kissing her sent shivers to my body. I was not informed that ex-couples can now casually kiss and flaunt their pictures on social media. I feel betrayed and fooled not just once but twice. I thought giving him a second chance would be enough for him to change but I was wrong.

"How could he do this to me? All this time I thought their relationship was over, but now I am seeing photos of them happy together uploaded on Facebook." I mentally told myself.

I am starting to make audible sounds while crying but I cover my mouth immediately to prevent my parents from hearing me cry. I can't wait for tomorrow to come so that I can ask him about the pictures. That was the last thing I remembered before drifting to sleep.

I wake up from the ray of sunlight that escapes through my window and shines right at my face. I check my phone and it is still six o'clock in the morning. Good thing I didn't wake up late after what happened last night. I lazily get up from bed and go straight to the bathroom to take a shower. After taking what feels like an hour of staring blankly at the wall of the bathroom, I finally finished taking my shower. I change to my school uniform and face the mirror to check if I get dark circles around my eyes due to last night. I felt a relief after seeing that it's not that visible. I can say that I'm overall okay. Physically. I heaved a sigh as I remembered about Jeremy. I badly need to talk to him and he better prepare an acceptable reason for those pictures. I rush out of the room after checking that I've brought everything I will need for school. The school is just a walking distance from our house so I just walk everyday. It is a form of exercise for me and a time for me to think of the possible things that might happen if what I thought last night is true. I should be ready for every possibility even the painful ones. When I arrived at school, there is only one person that I wanted to see but it seems like he's nowhere to be found.

"Hey, Sabrina." It was Andi, one of my classmates and a close friend of mine.

"Andi, what's the matter?" She has a very serious face right now and I am not used to it because she is the kind of girl who always smiles and gets crazy every time we see each other. By the way, she knows that Jeremy is my boyfriend.

"I need to tell you something but I want to talk to you in private."

"Okay." I followed her and found myself in one of the benches near the oval.

"Now, what do you want to tell me?" I asked her. She seems hesitant to tell me at first but after a few seconds, she finally decided to speak.

"Sab, promise me first that you won't get mad at me." I am confused with the way she is acting now but I tried to smile at her.