History.

youre all ive ever wanted but im terrified of u

Recap from the last chapter

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I'm gonna have a good fucking time tonight. I don't give a damn if he is here it not. I worked my ass off for this. I'm gonna show off. I'm with Joji. I got my dream house. I have all my friends.

Why am I not feeling complete?!

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Amelia's point of view

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Shay and I walk into my record labels lobby where the party had already started. All the guys were following along with their girls. I could hear my name still being called from the outside but I didn't care.

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I giggled and brought Shay to the bar and got us drinks. Shay laughed and held onto her drink and my arm. I lead her to the vip area. Gus was there.

I fixed my posture and walked over to the other side not faltering at all. We sat down and the rest of my little gang came over.

They all were partying and getting drunk, but I was sipping wine. Even Shay was getting drunk off her ass. I'm gonna have to call them each an Uber later. Great.

They all soon went to dance drunkenly on the dance floor but I was left alone sitting on a couch my phone. Soon I felt the space beside me dip down. My phone was taken by tattooed hands.

As I went to punch them or scream their arms wrapped around me. "Hey Lia.." Gus had his arms around me with a hand in the back of my head making me nuzzle into his neck.

I bit my lip. I took a deep breath breathing in his smell. I finally pushed him away. "Gustav, don't touch me." Gus put his hand on my thigh and I pushed it away.

"Amelia look at me right now." I didn't move my head. Gus took me by my chin and made me look into his eyes. I bit my lip hard. Gus put his hand on my cheek.

"Forgive me princess. You want to... I can see it in those beautiful eyes." Gus was right of course. I wanted to forgive him so bad. I turned my head and looked back at all my friends.

They are shit faced. I looked back to Gus and kissed him. He seemed surprised but he kissed back. Before I knew it I was in his lap.

Then we were upstairs.

I'm so ashamed of the rest...

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I woke up the next morning in my studio. My head pounding I couldn't remember what happened last night. I looked over and I saw that black and pink hair and almost screamed. "No no no..." I mumbled as my hands cupped my mouth.

I felt tears come from my eyes and Gus sat up and smiled then frowned. He wrapped his arms around me. "Hey it's fine we are together again." Gus said sweetly.

"No! We are not." I pushed him away and got up quickly. I got dressed fast. "Get up. Get dressed. Get the fuck out." Gus shook his head as he got up and put on his clothes from the night before. "I can't believe- I really thought you'd take me back."

I looked down, I really hurt him. I feel shitty. I feel bad for him and Joji. I'm so conflicted, I love them both. Gus cheated when I was abducted. Joji never hurt me before.

"I'm sorry Gus. This was a mistake. I love you. But I also love Joji. You hurt me. He didn't. I'm not leaving something that isn't toxic for something toxic. Move on. I'm not coming back." I said as a few tears left my eyes.

"I love you... But we... We are toxic." Gus walked up to me and kissed me. I tried to protest but I slowly melted into it. By the time he pulled away my hands were on his cheeks and his arms were around me.