It was a chilly dawn of day.
The leaves were turning brown, red and orange. The slightest of the colour green could still be seen as the foliage kept on dying away day by day.
People have always found autumn to be beautiful and all that. I've always thought about how weird it is to see beauty in death.
Death has always been something I'm not great at dealing with. Whether it is a relative, a loved one, a stranger, I always run from it. I wouldn't say I fear death, I also wouldn't say I'm looking forward to dying. I'm somewhere in the middle of those thoughts. I've come to terms with the fact that we're all just gonna die at some point. Overall I see life for what it really is unlike some people.
We are born, we grow, we start studying for a job, we work, we make money, we retire, we die. Sometimes we continue on the family name and that's how the cycle doesn't break.
This is the boring life cycle of affluent countries and their people. Sometimes I find myself thinking that we just waste our days and lose ourselves. Nowadays I feel as if I'm slowly drifting away from all that is humanity. I feel myself dying just a little bit more every day. Now, I'm not suicidal or anything remotely close to hurting myself physically. I just don't see the point of living so I don't even make an effort to live. I don't go look for trouble and that rush of adrenaline like most think. I just spend way too much time screwing around without actually accomplishing anything.
Every morning I wake up and stare at my ceiling for hours before getting out of my trance and getting a move on. I don't feel hopeful nor optimistic for the new day. I don't expect anything from anyone. Not anymore. I used to be that one innocent kid and wore my heart on my sleeve but it got me nowhere. People just exploited your kindness, used you and left you there in the dark. I've given up on feelings and emotions for the sake of self-preservation but instead of being untouchable, I'm just a living corpse.
Thanks for reading my first chapter! I'd be super grateful if you'd comment your opinion on this! Anything from constructive criticism to positive comments is welcome!❤️❤️ Ps. This is my first time writing a ff so that's why this isn't gonna be the best writing you've seen! :D
⚠️None of the photos used in this ff are mine!!
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