the mind of the depressed

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"Just take a deep breath, it's all going to be okay soon"

your mind was telling you, as you sat there on the cold asphalt.
What happened? How could it come this far? You never cared what anyone said, you always had your own, quite uniqe mind, that you never shared with anyone. There wasn't any traumatizing recent event that could've put you in that state of mind you were in lately.

Empty.

That's how you felt. It seemed like the emptiness wanted to consume you whole, it felt like it would grow bigger from day to day, that it would swallow you one day and wouldn't leave anything of what you once were behind. Only your cold and empty body, that recently felt like it didn't even belong to you anymore. It felt as if it was already dead, you felt as if you were already dead.

Just a walking corpse.

But why?

This was a question that you yourself couldn't answer but still asked yourself every day. When would all of this finally come to an end? All these questions and many more ran through your mind and you couldn't answer a single one. You were sure you would lose your sanity one day, but when would this day come? What would happen if you did? You'll never know.

It scared you.

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~Saf