SWASAN: AASHIYAN

EPISODE - 14

Swasan stared at each other for a while until sanskar entered the room and ignoring swara kept his bag and was opening his shoes.
Swara took out his night dress and waited till he kept the shoes aside. Once he was done she forwarded his clothes to him.
Swara- you freshen up first then we need to talk. [said determinedly]
Sanskar- you are no one to tell me what I should do and what not.
Harshly taking the clothes from her hand sanskar went in washroom and closed the washroom door. Swara just looked at the way he went taking his clothes from her.
A while later, Swara who was standing near the window gazing the sky, waiting for sanskar, turned with the sound of washroom's door opening to find him coming out and taking the pillow and blanket for sleeping on couch. She closed her eyes frustrated for a moment to calm herself and went to sanskar stopping him in his tracks. He looked at her irritated and tried to move past her but swara held his arm.
Sanskar- what is your problem? Can't you just stop coming in my way everytime?
Swara- it's enough sanskar. I should ask you- what is your problem? It has been six days I am back here and it's the third day you are back from your trip and since then I am trying to talk to you but you aren't ready. I am pleading you and apologizing but you are not giving any heed to it. Here I am trying to fix whatever went wrong between us but you are just saying one single thing that I should not come in your way and you don't want to talk.
Swara- why sanskar? Why don't you want to talk? I feel like a stranger here just because of your behaviour which I am not. I am your wife and I have at least this much right to have sometime with you, exchange few words but you are adamant due to your ego, your anger.
Sanskar- [angrily] just shut up swara. My ego, my anger, really. You feel like a stranger, but you shouldn't just feel but you should know that you are a stranger for me and nothing else. I don't want you around me and you don't get this simple thing in your mind.
Swara- [angry but trying to be calm] sanskar I am your wife. why are you being so rude? Just if you say, I won't become a stranger. I have apologised to you so many times but you aren't considering my words even once. Let that be you aren't ready to hear me. Just once let us sit and talk. Until and unless we will talk...[swara stopped speaking and flinched as sanskar suddenly spoke in loud voice]
Sanskar- talk talk talk....haan what to talk. [throwing the pillow and blanket on couch, he held her arms roughly] you want to apologize, convince me and get things fixed. Just this is what you want. How many times have you thought what I want, what I think, what is my say. You know what, you just want to convince me and then be happy with you. And then you will continue with your mahantha without thinking about me and blame me, question me and leave me if ever in any way I was related to some incident. You doubted me at the time when ragini was kidnapped too. That time you had said me that you won't ever doubt me again but you did again this time.
Sanskar- [angrily and being emotional] First you broke the promise I gave you and without caring, without thinking about me, you came here and put yourself on gun point without thinking about me. You don't know the feeling of losing your love and living without them, I felt it when you fell in the river but still I survived with the hope to get you back just believing on your promise but how could you know? [he started taking steps towards her and she took her steps back feeling the intensity of anger and pain in his voice]
Sanskar- I always believed on every word you spoke, trusted you blindly, loved you to an unbreakable extent and supported you in each condition, every decision you took and in return I just wished your support for me, a little love and trust. Did I ever demand anything from you or stopped you for anything. Only once I said you not to contact here but you did. I was angry and upset the way laksh and badi maa didn't trust me. Ok that's fine if you contacted here. I would have forgiven you for that also if you would have said me about it after I was calm. But you didn't. That night you were talking to ragini naa and seeing me you pretended to be angry on her, am I right? You couldn't trust me enough to explain me of whatever you were doing. [by now he pinned her to the wall and they were standing extremely close to each other]