Its Not In My Program (Reader x Connor) Discontinued

Three - Sweet talk

"so you're sleeping over my house tonight Dad" Laura states

"Ugh really, you house will be a mess" Hank scoffs

"dad, you can't get home and it's late" Laura pleads

next thing you know Connor and myself are in the back seat, Laura and Hank in the front talking, on the way to Laura's house. it is a bit further away than I expected. In the corner of my eye, I see Connors' eyes close and all of a sudden, mine too (imagine whooshy wishy noises) as my site fades black and then to a blue and then to a white.

"where am I?" I ask as I look around to beautiful white infrastructures and a little moat

"you are in your mind Y/N, but right now you are also in Connors, as you can see" A lady answers my question and as I look around, half winter, half spring... mine is half winter, I wonder why

I then see Connor appear

"Amanda nice to see you, Oh and Y/N" Connor happily states

"since she is part of the mission now, she will be involved with our conversations" Amanda states

she leads Connor and myself to the edge of the moat's bank and starts talking. asking about how our relationships are with our Lieutenants and how the mission is going. I didn't say much

"Y/N? you're quiet?" Amanda states

"I am just taking in information in," I say

"very well" Amanda dismisses "you guys are home now"

as she says that, my eyes shut and it fades to black and my eyes are open again

Connors pov

"Jesus, is that what you call sleep?" Laura asks

Y/N ignores her and walk straight into the house, myself right behind her.

Offended?

Y/N and I stand there and watch as Hank and Laura talk. Its 11 pm, a bit late

"Laura, I think its best if you had your sleep now" Y/N states

"yeah you're right, alright dad, goodnight," Laura says as she heads into her bedroom

Hanks decides to go as well

"G'night" he waves and heads into the guest bedroom

Y/N walks over to the couch and sits down and i follow

She seems troubled again, she is thinking?

"what are you thinking about Y/N?" I suddenly ask

"the case" she says as she doesn't move

She is lying, I feel pity for her

I put my hand on her shoulder "you are not alright, your LED, its yellow"

"is that a problem?" She asks

"yes" I sigh "it means you are troubled, flashing yellow means taking information in but staying yellow means troubled"

She seems shocked? "you are troubled" as she says that, I feel cared for, and noticed.

I am not troubled, ha!

"i-i am not troubled" i huff and turn away, Y/N's LED is yellow again

"you are, even right now" she explains the times she has noticed and I am shocked. I feel scared, and sad and all these emotions I have never felt before

"Connor?" She says concerned

"this is not in my program," I panic, scared. I start fiddling with my hands, i am nervous, I feel her gaze on me, she is making me feel weird

Y/N-
I have never seen him like this before, his emotions are showing, Its. New.

All of a sudden, she grabs my hands "Don't worry Connor" I look down at our hands than back up to Y/N eyes " I have the same problem, I have this feeling that is not in my program, it is like a really care for a person" i am confused but i understand

I trust her, should I tell her?
Yes

"those deviants" i explain "they wanted to be free but I couldn't, the mission, I need to complete the mission" i am scared, Y/N holds my hands tighter

"I know Connor," she says with a smile.

Error, error, feelings cooing down

suddenly i pull my hands away and face forward feeling nothing. She sits there shocked,

I can't control this,
Sorry Y/N

Her LED turns blue again. She faces forward, there is silence.

Y/N-
Did I do something wrong, I feel guilty, I shouldn't be doing this

She then says "I'm sorry Connor"

I look at her as she looks forward  with a sad look on her face

I feel so sad and scared and everything! this is definitely not in my program.

She looks down and I am still staring

Cute, beautiful, Intelligent, Nice, Kind, Amazing, Out of this world. She is perfect

"you are troubled" i state

"yes Connor, I am," she says as she stands up and looks out the window, thinking.

Error error, emotions cooling down

I sit up straight, time to wait for the Anderson's