Random Stuff because I'm bored

Life Happens. And it sucks.

So, today, I went to a party for my brother's significant other. It was fun, mostly.

I had a panic attack while I was there. One of my best friends helped me through it though.

But thats not the worst part.

My brother is dating my crush. And that person before they started dating my brother, said that they liked me. More then a friend. And that made me happy. We would share a lot of hugs and cuddles, and one or two kisses everytime I went over. But we couldnt date because our parents prevented us.

I was happy with what I had.

But all that came to an end.

My brother is in a Polymoras relationship. Which means he is dating two other people. No that does not mean he's cheating. There is a Nonbionary person and a trans Ftm boy. The boy was my crush.

Im just going to call the trans one T and the nonbionary one N.

So one night, N texted my brother asking if he wanted to be in a polymoras relationship with T. He said yes. Even tho he knew my feelings.

A few weeks pass and up comes N's birthday party. I started having a panic attack because of two reasons. One, To many people were there and they were shouting. Two... T was mostly ignoring me.

My friend, lets call her C.

C noticed the fact that I was having a panic attack. She helped me through it, taking me away from the group. Once the attack passed, I thanked her and we rejoined the group. I dont think anyone noticed that we were gone.

After the party, me and my brother went to a different friends house. Lets call her K.

While at K's house, my and Bro were talking with K. During it, my brother told me that I thought that T had a crush on me.

I questioned him about the comment and Apperantly, T was faking his crush on me.

*sound of glass shattering*

That was my heart.

That's what I get for falling in love

I hope its not true.

Anyway, I'll see you all later. I just needed to rant. I'm try my best not to start crying. I love you all so much. Bye!

    Your Trans Boi,
         Aaron P.