Levi x Reader Oneshots

•Erwin x Levi x Depressed!Reader•

I was embarrassing myself and I knew that. I threw the rest of the bottle against the wall and wheeled myself out of the cellar. I was lucky the cellar had a ramp and I was also lucky I had learned how to wheel myself away quickly. I'm sure Erwin was looking at me confused. He had no idea what I was going on about. In reality I was just upset that he never noticed my feelings for him.

I made my way towards my room, running into Captain Levi on the short trip. "Are you okay?" He bent down and whipped tears from under my eyes. I hadn't even notice that I was crying.

"Did you see all that as well?" I asked knowing many other cadets and higher ranked officers were watching me shout and throw a fit.

He only nodded. "Would you like me to take you to your room? I take it your going that way."

I nodded. Levi was always helping me since I became injured. I heard he was even the one to rescue me from the Titan's hand but I didn't know since I blacked out. He grabbed the handles of my wheelchair and took me to my room.

"Is there anything else you need?" He asked me as he stopped at my office door.

"No. Thank you though." I thanked him happy that he didn't mention my drunk fit with Erwin.

"Is you need anything. Just let me know."

I nodded and watched as Levi made his way onto where ever he was going. I felt bad. I was throwing drunk fits and embarrassing myself. I was tired of all this. It was time to end it. I closed my office door and locked it before heading to my desk and grabbing sheets of papers and a pen. I was going to write my final words down in letters. First I would apologize for my behaviour and than say goodbye.

I began with a letter to Hanji. Hanji was my sister. We weren't related in any way but she was my sister. She cared for me and was always a good friend. I was going to miss her. I had to thank her for all the good memories she gave to me.

I wrote Erwin's next. An apology for insulting him in ways he couldn't even understand. And a letter containing my true feelings. I wanted to let Erwin know how I loved him but at the end of the day, I knew he didn't love me back. And the worst part of it all... I was okay with it.

My third letter was to the trainees. I had to apologize to them as well for my behaviour and for failing at being a Squad Leader.

My final letter was to Levi. For some reason, I felt as though the letter I wrote to him was more heartfelt. Maybe it was because he was always nice to me despite having a cold attitude towards most. And maybe it was also because he helped me the most when I became paralyzed. Either way, I had to thank him more than anyone else.

{Levi's Point of View}

I've been long paperwork for hours. I needed air. I stood up and made my way towards my door when suddenly I saw an envelope under my door frame. It seemed like a long letter and so I wanted to read it in my office but I was in need of that fresh air. I decided to just open the window in my office and read the letter there. That was when I felt it, a shoe drop on top of my head. I grabbed it before it fell to the ground, only two stories down. This shoe was (your name)'s. I looked back at the letter and it all my heart dropped. It couldn't be!

I ran. I ran as quick as I could to the roof and it was there were I saw her body hanging. Sobbing uncontrollably, I untied the rope from her neck and held her body in my arms.

"No. Don't go. Don't you dare leave me! (Your name) please! Stay with me!" I started yelling once I realized I couldn't save her. "Please (your name)." I leaned my forehead against her own. "Don't leave me by myself. I love you."

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Erwin eventually found me holding (your name)'s cold lifeless body in my arms. He cried then and here he was now, still crying as her body buried.

"It's time to read our letter from her." Hanji laid a hand on Erwin's shoulder as she steeping in front of us all. "Before (your name) committed suicide, she wrote me and a few other letters. I will now read mine.

Dear Hanji,

I apologize for my behaviour from earlier however I must apologize for something else much more important. I'm sorry that I'm leaving you. We've made it this far in life but now it's all coming to end. I can't handle the pain and shame I feel everyday. I'm so sorry Hanji. You're been the best sister anyone could have asked for. You're a strong squad leader and I hope that even after my death, you continue to be strong. Let my death not face you as I wish you the best in upcoming days. I also hope that you can forgive me for a short letter but know it's because this hurts me all too much. Thank you for becoming my best friend and for being my sister. -(your name)."

Hanji cried as she threw the letter into the flames. She lowered her head as she approached Erwin. It was his turn.

"Dear Erwin,

I know that you're confused after I shouted at you. I'm sorry for that confusion but I will now explain myself. I was in love with you as you never noticed. I hide my feeling for a long time and I apologize. I think after I became paralyzed however, I lost my feelings and love for you. I lost feelings for many things so please, don't take it personally. You were an amazing Commander and I have high respect for you. I am sorry to inform you that these words will be the last you hear from me. I thought to myself that I should at least admit my past feelings towards you in order to give you peace. And I truly hope that you do find peace in this letter. Goodbye, Commander."

I felt my heart shatter for a moment. She use to love Erwin but at the same time a part of me was happy. I was happy because as Erwin threw that letter into the fire, I knew her letter to me was much more heartfelt. It was my turn. I didn't really want to read my letter out loud but we all promised to do.

"Dear Levi,

Thank you. I have no other way to phrase this but today...today I will end my life. I don't know why but I want to tell you... I want to tell you everything. And so I will also tell you where I will end my life. You can find me hanging from the roof above your office window. I don't know if you will rush to my side but if you do than you'll probably finishing reading this letter later on. If that is the case than I'll first thank you for rushing to my side. You always did care for me and from what I heard, you even saved my life from the Titan's hand.

I would like to thank you secondly for being warm hearted. Most know you as humanities strongest and call you a stoic Leader but I knew you as a man who showed affection in ways many couldn't understand. I'm happy to let you know that I understood. We were close and yet so distance. I truly came to realize that as you helped me more than anyone in my last days.

Thirdly, I would like to thank you for teaching me to still have feeling in my last hours. As you took me to my room, you didn't question anything and just helped me. In my last moments, even as I write this, I'm so very happy that you were always so loving towards me."

I paused. I could see tear stains on the page. Something none of the other had. I felt myself holding back tears.

"As I die, I will think of you. I will think of all you have done for me and the small moments we shared. Please, for me, remain strong and remain kind hearted. Thank you and goodbye, Levi. - (your name)."

For the first time in years, I felt a tear escape my eyes. I should have told her while she alive that I loved her. Maybe I could have saved her. Maybe I could have helped her move on from Erwin. Maybe I could have helped her more in general.

I kissed the letter before throwing it in the fire with (your name)'s body. "I love you. Goodbye, (your name)."