Girl With a Secret

Chapter 15

"Ok, so we agreed are you going to let Bones help you?" Erica asks standing up and turning off the water, Vi nods and I look at Erica shocked

"Bones can you lift Violet onto the counter so she doesn't make her feet worse?" Erica says as she grabs some towels. I slowly move towards Vi and place one arm under her legs, the other around her waist. I can tell she's not comfortable with me touching her, but she wraps one arm around my neck and I lift her up, gently sitting her on the bathroom counter.

"Ok Vi, you get yourself dried off, I need to talk to Bones and then he will be right back." Erica says before pushing me out of the bathroom and I follow her into the hall.

"How did you do that? She flinched away from me." I ask Erica

"Only Bear knows, but before we were married I was raped, so I could understand how she feels. She's not scared of you, she had to do things to survive. She told me what she had to do to escape so until she starts to get over it she will be unsure. Just be patient with her." Erica says stroking my arm

"Thank you." I say just as Diego comes racing up the stairs

"Where is she?" He asks breathlessly

"You go get her dressed and ask her if she's ready to see Diego, Diego come with me I'll fill you in." Erica says taking Diego's arm and heading down to the bar.

Lucy POV

I don't know how I deal with this. I was taught to survive, to withstand torture of the highest levels, but my dad never actually said what I do once I make it out. I know I'm safe but I don't feel it. When they were beating me I went to my happy place like my dad taught me, but when they were raping me I pictured Bones so that I could escape but now I can't get that out of my head when I look at him.

I finished drying myself off and wrapped a dry towel around me just as Bones walks back in with one of his shirts. He hands me the shirt and turns around, putting his back to me

"You don't have to turn around, besides with my ribs I could do with a hand" I say, my voice quieter than I would like. He turns and I can see the concern in his eyes, I wish I could tell him it's ok, it's not his fault but I can't get out of my head. He helps me into his shirt and then hesitates

"You ready for me to carry you back to bed?" He asks, I can tell in his voice he's scared to touch me, I didn't mean to flinch I felt bad as soon as I did it. I nod not knowing what to say and he lifts me off the counter, carrying me to the bed and laying me down gently

"Diego is downstairs if you want to see him" he says stepping away from me

"Not tonight, I just want to sleep" I say lying back against the pillows. He heads to the door and opens it

"Please don't leave me" I whisper trying to hold back the tears threatening to fall. He pulls out his phone and types a message before taking off his cut and sitting in the armchair next to the bed.

"This is your bed you don't have to sleep in that chair." I say rolling onto my side to look at him

"Are you sure? I'll sit here every night until you're ready" he replies, I just nod. He gets up and goes into the bathroom, coming back with a glass of water and two bottles of pills

"These are for pain and these will help you sleep" he says placing them on the nightstand. With that he moves around the bed, I hear him taking his clothes off and then feel the bed dip as he lies down next to me. Part of me just wants him to hold me, I want to curl up against him and feel safe. The rest of me never wants to be touched by a human being ever again. I reach up and grab the pills, take them with the water and then curl up on my side, as best I can with my ribs, facing away from Bones and try my best to go to sleep.

I woke up wrapped in Bones strong arms, my face in his neck. I went to move away but he pulled me tighter against his chest

"Shh Vi it's ok, I've got you" He whispers half asleep. I tilt my head back to look up at him as he looks down at me, he lets go

"Sorry, you were having nightmares during the night, holding you was the only thing that calmed you down" he says giving me space, Bones is so good to me

"Thank you. I love you" I say before curling up against him again, burying my face in his neck, he wraps his arms around me tightly again and I fall back to sleep.

I woke again a few hours later, still wrapped up in Bones arms, I tried to move but the pain made me hiss. I rolled over and grabbed the painkillers, when I turned back Bones was awake and looking at me

"How you doing today?" He asked sitting up

"I'm ok, just in pain. Thank you for taking care of me" I reply

"Anytime Vi, why don't I go get you some breakfast?" He says getting out of bed, I nod and he gets dressed then leaves the room. A few minutes later he's back with breakfast and we sit together in bed eating

"Can you let Diego know I want to see him today?" I ask between mouthfuls

"Sure" he replies before picking up his phone and sending a text.

"I need to go to church in about an hour so Diego can sit with you while I'm gone." Bones says, I can see him trying to gauge my reaction out of the corner of his eye

"Ok, but don't be long" I reply. We finish breakfast and Bones makes sure I'm comfortable before leaving for church. Diego walks in a few minutes later

"Hey Lulu I brought you some stuff." He says placing a bag on my lap, I open it and pull out my sketchbook and pencils and a new phone

"I've already put everyone's numbers in there so you can bark orders from here until you're fighting fit again" he says taking the bag from me and laying out chocolate and candy and other junk food he remembered I like

"Thanks Diego" I reply picking up a bag of candy.

"As soon as you've healed we'll get back to training so we can destroy these motherfuckers" he says sitting in the armchair Bones had occupied

"Thanks but I won't be fighting anymore. I'm done. I'm tired, you can go if you want I'm going to take a nap until Bones gets back" I say before lying down and turning away from him.