Phan one-shots

I can't live without you

Hey guys. This one might be a bit sad.

Enjoy!

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Dan's P.O.V

This is all my fault.

I shouldn't have let him leave.

I should have ran after him.

I could have prevented all of this.

If it weren't for me he'd still be here.

He'd still be breathing.

He'd still be alive.

I remember the night perfectly.

"I'll be home by around 12 hopefully." Phil told me. I looked at the clock. It was 10:53pm. "Alright Philly. Have fun." I replied getting of the sofa to hug him goodbye. I wrapped my arms around him. "I love you Dan." He said. "I love you to Phil." I replied kissing the top of his head.

"Are you sure your ok with me filming a video at Pj's?" He asked me. "Yes, He's my best friend and your my boyfriend. I forgave you both. It was just a drunkin mistake. I know you love me and I know Pj feels horrible about it, especially because he cheated on Chris." I replied. "Ok good." Phil said smiling. "Ok see you around 12?" I asked.

"Yes." Phil answered. I gave him one last kiss and he opened the door and left for Pj's. I laid on the couch and watched Buffy deciding to wait for Phil to come home. Finally 12 rolls around, he hasn't come back yet. Oh well him and peej probably just filmed longer than they thought they would. Then 1am comes, he's still not back, I brush it off. Then 2am. I call him, no answer, I call again, no answer. Again, no answer. 3am. I called about 10 times and I'm worried. 4am I'm getting read to go to Pj's. But Phil opens the door to the apartment. "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!" I yell.

"I'm so sorry Dan! We lost track of time and-" "You lost track of time?! it's 4am Phil! I've been worried sick about you!" I interrupted him. "I'm so sorry Dan." Phil said and he stepped closer to me. I took a step back. "You were probably cheating again." I spat coldly. He gasped. "Dan! That was one time and we were drunk! You just said before I left that you know I love you! and I do!" He yelled back. "Well that was before you came back at 4 in the morning. And besides I called you like a thousand times! You could have answered or texted me!" I yell.

"I didn't have my phone with me ok?" He said. "Phil..." I said anger clear in my voice. "I know! I never bring it anywhere and it makes you angry! It's not my fault I just forget!" He yelled. "I forgot, I forget. Is that all you can say?!" I yelled though I immediately regret it. "Fine if it bothers you so much than I'm leaving!" He yelled back. "Good!" I said though I know I didn't mean it. He went into his room and packed his suit case. "I'll get the rest of my stuff later." He said and with that he walked out the door.

My mind told me to run after him, but my body wouldn't move. "Phil. Oh god Phil. What did I do?" I said to my self as I slid down the wall.

Now I'm sitting here in the hospital with the heart monitor making a long single beep. The night he left was Wednesday. On Tuesday night there was a murder. There was a murder on Wednesday to. But the person that was murdered wasn't some random person. It was my Phil. My sweet innocent little Phil.

The police say he was shot right under the heart and there was a slim chance he would make it. And he didn't. "Nurse!" I yelled. "Nurse! Please! Oh god please. No no no no no no!" I said and I grabbed Phil's cold pale hand. "Please Phil, don't go. I'm so sorry Philly, I love you so so so much." I said my voice cracking.