What if I stayed ?

Chapter 6

" Did someone open the door ? " asks Yusuf.

" The thing is... " says his father but his mother interrupts him by saying " no , nobody was here, the door was open. "

" oh, good. Did you had breakfast? " ask Yusuf.

" No, we came to eat out breakfast with you " says his mom.

" Ok, let's go " says Yusuf. They went to eat breakfast but Yusuf is worried about where Hayal is, he is worried about why she left without telling him.

After walking and crying a lot Hayal is standing in front of her house.

Hello my dear dark house. I walked all around the city, still I didn't have where else to go, I came back to you without no other choice. I keep thinking if you're a prison and not a house, because you keep closed all those painful memories inside, as long as I walk in all those memories will suffocate me, it will be scary and hard to breathe. It's fine, I lost everything already.

She opens the door and walks in..

I can smell my mother's smell, I swear it's her.

She goes in her mother's room , And takes her blouse and sits on her bed.

I miss you mom, and I'm so sorry. I'm sorry that you're in prison now, that's because of me. I'm sorry that I can't do nothing, grandpa was right I'm such useless person.

Look at us now, our life fell apart and that's only because of me. I should've done something, I should've stopped this. Why didn't I run away with you before this happened ? why was I afraid to leave ? There wasn't nothing much worse than this to happen. I'm sorry mom , I'm sorry...

She gets up and takes the scissor and cuts her long hair, from tailbone length now she has neck length.

Someone rings the doorbell, she goes to open the door, it's Jimmy.

" You came home ? My mom saw you. Are you ok ? Why are you crying ?  What happened to your hair ? " he ask because he is shocked and worried.

" I don't need them. It's better in this way " she answers with cold voice.

" You look beautiful. Why didn't you tell me that you're coming ?  " he is trying to calm her " I'm happy that you're home now, because we'll be near. Did you eat lunch ? "

" I don't have appetite. "

" My mom cooked so many delicious things, or let's go out and eat. "

" No, I don't want to, you can go. "

" Ok, we'll go later. "

Jimmy gets a message from Yusuf : " Are you with Hayal ? I don't know why she left without telling me. Text me back when you see this message. "

" Hayal, did Yusuf bring you home ? "

" No, I walked. "

" Did something happen between you two ? "

" I don't want to talk about it. Starting from now don't ask me such questions. "

" I apologize. "

He texts back Yusuf : " We have to meet. I text you when I'm free. "

After spending some time with Hayal Jimmy says " I'll go to buy something, I'll be right back. "

" It's fine, I can stay alone. You don't have to come, I'm not a kid. "

" No, I'll be right back. Beside I'm bored to stay at my house, I'll sleep here tonight. "