Am I even wanted? (Langst story)

Chapter 1

{Lance POV}

Keith left about a month ago and even though we would fight he was one of the nicest people in the way he treated me. Ever scene he left I have been treated like trash by everyone except Hunk and Corran who don't seem to notice the way the others treat me. One day I walked in to the training room and said "Hi Shiro what are you doing." "I don't have time for you Lance! You need to act more like Keith!" He yelled. I just nodded and started to train instead of using my blaster I turned my bayard into a sword and started at level one. "I will act like Keith it is better for everyone." I thought starting to train. I don't know how long I had been training but by know I was at level twenty. I didn't notice Shiro walking in. "Start training level 21."  I said beginning to get ready for a fight. "End training sequence."  I heard Shiro say from beside me. He looked  angrily at me like I did something wrong. He started to yell at me about how I missed a group meeting. "I'm sorry." I mumbled. "I WISHED IT WAS YOU WHO LEFT NOT KEITH!" He yelled than covered his mouth as if he didn't believe what he just said. All I did was walk away. As soon I knew I was out of sight I ran crying to my room locking the door. I reached under my bed and grabbed my knife pulling up my sleeve and dancing the blade over my skin as a crimson liquid spilled out of the line staining my arm and sheets. Soon I walk to the bathroom and start to undress staining my shirt red as blood drips to the floor. I turn on the water and step in to the shower feeling a sting as water runs over the cut. 

{Time skip brought to you by depression}

I wrap my arm in bandages and put my jacket. It is like two in the morning I headed over to the training deck and started training by the time I stopped training I was bleeding and tired soon I saw people start to get up and get breakfast walking by were I was training. I was on level 53 at this point. "End training sequence." I said as I saw Hunk enter the room he looked worried about me. "Lance are you ok your bleeding!?" "I'm ok." I lied.  I left and when to my room. There I changed my bandage and my clothes. I went to the kitchen listening in ear buds. "You hear the people say you can't wake up this is not a dream you're part of the machine you are not a human being face made up living on a screen low on  self-esteem so you run on gasoline."  I hum grabbing a plate and putting it back as I hear the team talk about Keith. I almost ran to see.....KEITH. I stopped outside the room listening. "Keith I'm glad you're back we missed you Lance tried to act like you but he ended up messing up everything." I herd every one except Hunk, Corran, and Keith agree and laugh. I walked in with a blank expression not letting them know I heard them. I said hi to Keith and walked out of the room. Once I got to my room I was about to grab my knife but heard the alarms go off. "Keith is with lance in red. Lets go."  Shiro said.