absence; poetry

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the absence of you

without you, who am i?

you became my everything.

you gave someone who was struggling to live, a reason to wake up every morning.

you gave someone who hated themselves, a new sense of confidence.

and then you faded away.

and you took my smile,

my laughter,

my confidence and

my will to get up everyday with you.

i'm so desperately trying to gain these back

but then i see you.

you're so effortlessly happy.

you never have to think about the right thing to do or say.

you never have to worry about who you're going to sit with at this social interaction

or who you're going to partner with at this one.

it all just comes to you so naturally.

i often wonder what you've been up to for these past five months.

you found someone new.

someone who i guess cares more than you think i ever did.

i admire you so much.

and while from the absence of our conversations it doesn't seem like it,

i really do.

-z ♡