Chapter 7
I step closer to my bedroom, taking in deep breaths hoping I had left my room door open slightly before stepping into the shower, but I know for sure that I didn’t.
I finally push the door, opening it fully only to see Derrick huddled down with his hand reaching into my dirt bin, I just stand at the entrance of my room looking at him with words playing in my mouth but scared to come out due to the fear of daddy finding out.
Derrick slowly turns to me, rising to his feet and still latching onto my home pregnancy test. I quickly begin to beg and cry because I don’t know what else to do
“Please, please Derrick, you can’t tell anyone” I say to him pleadingly, he looks at me with an expressionless face and then he throws the test back into the dirt bin
“You shouldn’t leave these things lying around” he says to me and begins to walk away
“Derrick…” I call out to him
He stops and turns around to face me “yeh”
“Could you please keep my secret?”
“Why? Why should i?” he asks me looking me straight in the eye
“Because you just have to do this one favor for me. I’ll do anything you ask me to” I stutter as I say this to him as a last resort
“That works for me” he nods his head and walks off
I step back and lay flat on my bed, just thinking of life…of everything. I always obey daddy, he’s always been proud of me, do I really want to start lying to him now? I can’t be open with him either, I don’t want him to disown me, but to see the disappointment in his face would be like taking a pin and poking my heart a million times – daddy’s my life!
Then there’s Clarence, how would he react? How do I tell him? Should I text him? Call him? Tell him face-to-face?
After a few minutes of all these crazy thoughts circulating in my head and making me feel light headed, I sit up on my bed and place my hand on my stomach, thinking how my life will change in a matter of months if I decide to keep the baby.
Do I really want to be a mother at seventeen?
After the two little pink lines changed my life and my mood, Derrick decided to spend some time with his girlfriend and I’ve decided to go to Clarence’s place and tell him the consequence to our unsafe love making session
I grab my jacket and head out my room, as I slowly drag myself down the staircase, Derrick appears at the bottom
“Where are you off to? He asks me whilst buttoning his shirt
“I’m going over to Clarence’s place” I tell him, taking the last step down until I’m on level with him
“To tell him about the baby?” he finishes buttoning his shirt and stands there looking at me
“Yeh”
“I’ll drive you there”
“No, its fine, I’ll walk and you have that date with Tatiana…remember?”
“It can wait…and I’m not asking you, I’m telling you” he grabs the keys and opens the front door, gesturing me to walk out
We hop into the car and drive off. As we drive, there’s just silence until Derrick suddenly feels the need to take an interest in my life
“So…what are you going to tell him?” his eyes are on the road, his elbow leaning onto the window and the other hand on the steering wheel
“That I’m two months late and I’ve taken a pregnancy test and it turned out positive…” I casually say to him whilst nervously picking at my fingernails and staring out the window
“Scared?” he looks at me lifting his eyebrow
“A bit talkative tonight, aren’t we?” I sarcastically say to him avoiding his question
“Just being a concerned brother” he looks ahead and a ray of silence appears again
“Thanks” I say to him realizing how nice he’s being towards me and he’s trying to be my pillar of strength
YOU ARE READING
Momma's gotta secret but...So do I (Watty Awards 2012)
Short Story“What do you mean by Uncle D is really my dad?” she looks at her mother’s face with confusion and hope that it’s just a misunderstanding. Daniela is so furious with her mother for keeping such a huge secret from her that she forgets about her little...
