part of us | e.d

one

i read the paper over and over again. there's no frickin way this is true.

despite having my doubts, i was so sure luna is ethan's. but i guess not. kara was lying this entire time. 

i feel my heart tearing for ethan. for the past year, he's become attached to this little baby. luna makes him so incredibly happy. 

and i'm about to tell him he has to give her up.

"well?" ethan looks at me expectantly, hope filling his eyes. i feel a huge lump in my throat, unable to get anything out. before i can stop them, a few tears roll down my cheeks.

the moment ethan sees that, his face falls. he starts shaking his head, unable to believe it.

"ethan-"

"no, there's no fucking way." he stands up, pacing around the living room. he runs his hands through his hair, his eyes getting puffy. i go over to him and try grabbing his hand but he yanks it away from me. 

"eth, just sit down, please."

he finally stops pacing and looks me in the eyes. "please tell me this is a joke." his voice breaks, tears brimming his eyes. "please, ry."

i look at the ground, unable to say what he's begging me to. 

he grabs the paper from my hands, finally reading it himself. his eyes are glossy, lined red. when he's done, he crumbles up the paper and throws it across the room.

"fuck!" he shouts, his chest heaving. he keeps walking back and forth, not sure what to do. "i can't fucking believe kara did this."

"eth-"

"for the past year, i raised her and some other guys' baby. she made me believe luna was mine." he clenches his jaw, getting angrier. "now that she suddenly wants her back, the truth comes out."

i understand ethan's anger. i hate it, too. she's just playing with ethan's heart, like she has been since high school.

but this? this is cruel on a whole other level.

ethan suddenly walks to the front door. he grabs his car keys from the table and reaches for the doorknob.

"where are you going?" i ask frantically.

"i can't be here right now. i don't want to see her." his eyes are still puffy, his emotions all over the place.

i run over to him, grabbing his wrist. "stop, you're not leaving like this."

he tries fighting my grip but i grab the keys from his hands. there was no way in hell i was going to let him drive right now.

"rylin, stop. give me the damn keys," he grits his teeth at me.

i shake my head. "no. i'm not letting you go."

"that's not your decision."

"i don't want you to-"

he gets in my face, shouting at me. "give me my fucking keys!"

i flinch, seeing this side of ethan scaring me. when i look at him again, i can see his eyes turn soft immediately. he grabs my arms gently, making me look at him. "i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to yell at you-"

"it's okay, ethan." i wrap my arms around his torso and bring him closer to me. he hugs my stomach right away, laying his head against my chest. 

i know what he's going through right now can't in any way be easy.

we slide down the door until i'm sitting on the ground and ethan's head is in my lap. he starts crying quietly, his body shaking.

i run my hands through his hair, trying to soothe him. all i want to do is take his pain away. it hurts me that there's nothing i can do.