Letters to Nate.

I ruin everything.

After about a week or so after moms funeral things started to cool off with Annie. Who pretty much ignored me and went on with her day. I loved waking up with Nate beside me. I kiss him on the cheek. "Hmm?" He says with his eyes still closed. I poke him in his side. He doesn't movie I poke him this time in his cheek. Nate opened one eye." What?" Nate asks opening both eyes."I absolutely love you." I tell him. He looks at me confused. "So I can't let you stay with me. You have to go back to Europe." I continue. Nate sighs. "I don't want too. I can go to a college here so I can visit you more often and you need help around here." Why is he being so stubborn. I cross my arms. "Your going." he grabs my waist pulling towards him and kisses me on my lips. I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him back. Damn he knows how to distract me.

" I'm never leaving you again. Your to important." he whispers in my ear. "No I don't want to ruin your chance to experience something most people can't do. It's just not happening! After college we can continue here. That is if you still want me." I yelled at him. " You can't seriously think id find someone better then you. Your all I ever wanted. I'd miss you to much. " Nate yelled back at me. I step back. he's only yelled at me once in this relationship." What if we broke up until you get back?" Tears brimming my eyes.