Satan's Arithmetic Part 1: The Scars Left By Memories

July: 2 girlfriends, one nigga

July 1st so now I guess we were together I really didn't want that because our friendship was so genuine and because we couldn't control the sexual urges or jealously the impact of the arithmetic could've crumbled. Mostly, because I start acting differently if you're my boyfriend I take everything to an offense. They say it takes a village to raise a child, I believe this saying because Shawn's way of tricking girls anything lies also with witnesses, the actors in the story are in fact a soul main part of his arithmetic, the people around him just wanted to see what was going to happen after the girl's find out. 5 days after my last encounter with Shawn I told him I'll see him this week. My head was on my shoulders I didn't expect me to feel so calm about certain things. This time, my hair was in a bob with a frontal. I was smiling and everything because he made me feel comfortable which was another part of his arithmetic. Make her feel like she's the only one, make her feel like it's confirmed and show her fake receipts. The devil didn't care what so ever. As long as it benefited him, that's all that mattered. I got dressed to link him and the sun was out, so I wore a crop top with some ripped pants. When I left my house I wasn't expecting to have a regular joyful day. When I got to him he took me straight to the basketball court. It wasn't a bad community. It wasn't bad while I was looking around, Shawn was conversing with everyone on every damn block. They were acting as if it was regular. This guy obviously wasn't the borning type when we got to the basketball court the hydrant was open. Kids were playing in the water. Laughing and having fun, I was watching Shawn and Elijah play basketball. Suddenly, Shawn put the ball down. "Wait, Elijah, I think I'm about to do something. He looked at the water, then looked at a water bottle on the floor. At first, I began to think he was gonna pour the water out the bottle like a bum and put hydrant water in it and drink it. Satan had other plans. Shawn picked up the bottle and put more water in the bottle. "I ain't forget Egpyt." I didn't even respond I just started running laughing: "Shawn stop you play too much." I was out of breath I ran for two blocks straight. When he caught me of course, I tried to beg him not to violate. He literally got me back. "You lucky this wasn't hot too because that water was hot as fuck that you threw at me. You must've been really angry." He threw all the water in that bottle on me then said: "Okay now we're even, you had fun with me today?" Walking back to the basketball court I was laughing. I couldn't believe he plays so much my hair was looking all cute and he wanna play water games. Most of the time if we weren't having sex we were talking shit to each other and about other people. We had a complex relationship at this point. He fooled me and he fooled everybody around me or even the people who are in my circle. I stayed with him for another hour just walking around talking bullshit then I decided to go home. I couldn't figure out what he wanted because after that day we were good. Up until Niyah post him on her story. Since I vowed to never fight over dick or fight over anything that got somebody's dick involved. I asked her flat out was that her boyfriend because I'll kindly take my Lil ass elsewhere. Her response wasn't something I expected: "No he's all yours I love him but I want him to be happy and you a good girl." First off, I just instantly said "Ok." Like what was that? A whole different level of humble I ain't reach obviously. This nigga dazed because we both messed up his arithmetic. It seemed like she was too used to these things. His arithmetic consisted of him having both of us. It's not like he didn't care that's what threw me off. Disgustingly speaking, we messed it up by talking at all. There wasn't supposed to be conversations between us. We fucked up his deck of cards, he had to shuffle them again. We fucked one last time, where we both had attitudes, the sex was good but I just could sense his deadly feelings. Every time he shuffled them he'll change his arithmetic. Anyway, he ended up getting a girlfriend days later and started moving different, remember I was still his girlfriend so I didn't understand. I do not play when a nigga is my boyfriend because it's like now we supposed to be something and you out here embarrassing me. Niyah, of course, did her own research on the girl. Meanwhile, I just stayed home or I was with my new best friend Elijah. The night he posted the video with the girl I wasn't surprised but yet, I wasn't satisfied. I began to think of mad conspiracy theories. I instantly jumped out of my bed and got in the shower. 30 minutes later, I began getting dressed for the day and I put my hair in a bun. My demon was ready to lash out. I posted the video on my own story and said: "If I see both of these two I'm beating the shit out of them!" I stepped out my house door and that's when my brain was set on "Kill mode". So for two weeks straight I've been ducking behind cars creeping. Chasing Shawn down blocks with sticks and I always had this mace on me that I carried. Elijah would actually watch me chase him. Sometimes he'd lie for him but that's his blood so of course, he'll do that. Everyone would watch me and know who I was but I just wasn't aware my name was even known by so many people. A girl tapped my shoulder while I was on the corner plotting looking for an idea to catch Shawn. "Hey, you Egpyt right? my name is Brianna. I'm not sure where my cousin went but Elijah not gonna tell you where he went and if he does know. You're pretty." I was just caught off guard that she knew my name and what I came over there for. "Thank you." This was far enough normal to anybody but he was on a different level petty.