catch me (demi lovato)

chapter 3

Maya's pov
I walked downstairs to see Demi talking to Maddie and when I walked towards them she looked at me confused. "You sure you wanna wear that? It's so hot out" fuck now what am I gonna do? I decided to just ignore her question so we can leave and get this day over with.
Through the entire car ride to the mall, Demi kept asking questions and trying to talk to me but I just can't let myself open up to her again. She always leaves and I end up getting hurt. When we finally get to the mall, I practically jump out the car, ready to get this awkwardness over with. As we opened the doors to go inside, we were flooded with paparazzi all around us Demi pulled me by my wrist and I flinched a little, great now she's going to be even more suspicious, but she just tried to reassure me against the paps, "just ignore them Maya". I tried blocking them out but I heard everything they said.
"Demi how's Maddison?"
"How is THAT her sister?"
"Maya are you self harming like Demi?"
"Maya get out the way we want photos of Demi"
We eventually got rid of them and went to look at clothes.

Demis pov:
"So Maya how's school?" Silence. She ignored me the entire car ride here and when I tried pulling her away from the paparazzi I saw her flinch a little. I need to find out if shes been cutting. She's been even more quiet since the paps came and I'm guessing she listened to what they said. "Hey baby girl you okay?" She looked at me and hesitated for a moment, "yeah I'm fine" why won't she just speak to me? I grabbed a few shirts and made sure some were short sleeves for Maya to fit on. She took them from me and every one she came out in, was as I expected long sleeved. She went back to fit on the rest and she didn't come out for 10 minutes. "Maya? What's taking you so long?" "Uh nothing I'll be out soon" she sounded like she was on the verge of crying. "Okay well if you don't like the rest you don't need to try them, don't worry" she came out a second later with red eyes " I didn't like these" fuck. She didn't try anything that showed her arms. We went to buy the clothes before going for lunch

Mayas pov
I can't try on these tops. I have no way of hiding my cuts. "Maya? What's taking so long" fuck fuck fuck. "Uh nothing I'll be out soon". I've been in here for 10 minutes crying because I don't know what to do. When Demi told me I don't need to try them I came out but I could see the worry on her face.
We just ordered food, and just the thought of eating makes me feel sick. The food arrived, Demi ordered pizza and I got a salad. I took a few bites and I was done, I was already on the verge of tears and I could feel myself getting fatter. 'demi will never love you looking like this'
"Dems, I'll be back I just need to pee" I didn't wait for her to answer and I ran off to the bathrooms. I tried making myself throw up and it just wouldn't come out. After a couple of attempts it finally worked and I walked back to the table and Demi looked at me concerned,
"Babes, we need to talk"