Adela POV
I smiled and waved at Kristine, my new friend, as we walked in opposite directions.
She was cool, but was close to figuring out what I do to myself.
Let me clarify.
I don't eat, that much anyway, I cut, and don't speak. I don't talk because it shows emotion, and people will see my pain. They'll find out what I do to myself.
That's one risk not worth taking.
Both my parents are in the hospital. They're both dying but refuse to admit it. I live with my sister, Lia, who's a year older than me. She also refuses to socialize with me at school.
I walked down the street, my frown back in place. I rarely smile, there's no reason to.
I started to feel a little nauseous, so I started to drink water from my water bottle. I should've eaten at lunch, but I only eat at home when Lia is watching me.
I crossed my arms and kept my head down on the walk home.
Halfway, Lia met up with me and we fell into step. I looked at her and smiled slightly.
"Hey Ade."
I put my hand up partially and kept walking.
"How was school?"
I shrugged.
"Did you meet the new girl?"
I nodded.
"Did she bother you?"
I shook my head.
"Oh. Are you two friends? I saw you guys talking."
I grinned and nodded again.
"Wow sis, didn't think you had it in ya."
I glared at my not-so-discreet sister. The rest of the walk went by in silence.
At home, I went up to my room and worked on my homework.
When I finished, I texted Kristine.
Me: Hey
Kristy: Hey
Me: U finish ur hw?
Kristy: ......
Me: Finish ur hw, then we can talk
Kristy: The struggles tho
Me: Go
I heard Lia call me down for dinner. I put my phone in my jeans pocket and went down for dinner.
We ate in silence. Well, of course, I mean if I don't talk and all.
Lia cleared her throat, snapping me out of my thoughts. I cocked my head to the side as if to ask what.
"I just wanted to know if you finished your homework." I nodded and stood up.
I washed what I used and went back up to my room. It wasn't too late, so I was going to visit my parents.
I wrote a note and left it taped to the fridge.
I walked all the way to the hospital and went straight into my parents room. I come here so often that they don't need to ask for identification.
I sat in the chair in the middle of my mom and dad's beds. I started to sob silently and my parents remained asleep, oblivious to their visitor.
It's not usually like this. Sometimes they're awake.
I looked up as their doctor walked in. He glanced between mom, me, and dad.
"They're going to live Adela. Don't worry. They'll be okay." He reassured. I knew they were. They got the treatments and were getting better.
But that's not why I cry every time.
I cry because I know they won't be proud to call me their daughter. They will hate to see their innocent little girl, cutting and barely eating.
I'm hanging on a thin line.
I wiped my tears held both of their hands.
***
I have to leave the hospital. I can't stay any longer.
I kissed both mom and dad on the forehead and started back home.
When I got back, I saw that Lia was fast asleep in her room.
I went into my room and picked up the pocket knife hidden in my drawers.
I locked myself in the bathroom and pushed the knife into my arm. I watched the blood for a minute, then put a tissue on it.
It never hurts. It feels like I've let out all my suppressed screams.
I continued to cut my arms for half an hour. It's a wonder I haven't died from blood loss.
I showered and went to my room. It was 11:46, not so late. Lia just goes to sleep early because while I'm out in the hospital, she's working.
Well, she works as a waitress (nope, not Starbucks) at a family diner 2 blocks away on weekdays and I work at a bakery, making the deserts of course, on weekends. These are our temporary jobs.
I played White Tiles on my phone until midnight and fell asleep.
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