My Highschool Story

One

Friends

Have you ever feel like you have no one in your life? Eventhough you DO have alot of friends in real life but still feel empty inside because you got this feelings that no one was there for you? And have you ever lost a few bestfriends? Me? Yes, I have. it's still going on and it's hurt.

I met these good people in highschool in 2015. Where I first became a newborn teenagers. There was me,EL, AD,BTH,QI and SA. We all in the same class except for one, which is QI. As bestfriends, We all have ups and downs together. We always shared our secrets together. But one day, things started to change, I can feel like  el,ad,sa and qi was avoiding me. Did something happened? Did I do anything wrong to them? It took me 2 days to realize that they dont want to be my bestfriends anymore and I feel really broken. Looking at them happy without me always make me wanted to cry. But thank god, bth was there for me when I need a shoulder to cry and I really grateful to have her in my life.

In 2016, I was in the same class with sa except for ad, els, qi and Bth. I know things will not be the same between me and sa after the broken friendship incident in 2014. So I eventually decided to make a new friend since my only best friend was in the other class. Lucky for me,  I found some cool people which is Franny, celes, pandra, Adrian, Mitchell, Robert and marrie. We all have same hobby and we were happy. But you know I can't leave sa alone in the corner because she was once my friend too and  all her friends was in different class so I ask her to come hangout with us. At first, we started okay but then after a while me and her started to become friends like we used to. We even joined project runway together and that was the most amazing moment EVER. But you know not all story ended with a good endings,  mine was not good when it comes to friendship.

2017 and 2018 was a worst year to me. I lost a lot of friends. Everything that I love and care about leave me without any reason. It hurts me and I fall into depression after that. (There was another reason why I fall into depression too). Sometimes I feel betrayed too  because I found out my friends was laughing and hanging out without me when I needed them. This time, I lost trust in friendship completely. Until I say enough is enough, I decided to cut them off from my life and didn't talked to them. I know at this point i'm alone and I have to take care of myself. Thank godness I made myself strong enough. In my broken friendship experience, I understand one thing, it was my fault to trust wrong people the most. I don't hate them, and i don't regret helping them or being with them or standing up for them at some part of my life.